Thanks for your replies everyone. Each post has something I can use to better my understanding.
You are all so great.
Eileen
Eileen,
I appreciated Roy's comments above along with all the others and of course we learn continuously so this will come up again. One thought came to mind for me and I would like to share it.
I have had cancer and been "cured" enough to continue to function fairly well for about twenty years now. I also have a degree of Prostate cancer that has not been treated thus far as I am 74 years old and "may" die of something else before the "cancer" overwhelms my body to the extent that I can't stand the pain. In January 2009 I had my left knee replaced and dealt with that trauma for a few weeks of therapy. The knee is pretty good now although this week my left hip is becoming tender resulting in pain and a limp.
So, what did I do that was wrong? What lesson is God teaching me and my wife and to a lesser extent my four children who suffer along with me?
Well, for one thing God is teaching me and all of us that we are mortal; we wear out eventually so we need to make the best of every day that we are given AND we need to look toward the future since this "mortal" life is temporary and fleeting. As the poet says, we are like the grass, here today and gone tomorrow. So we need to do the best we can with what we have been given no matter how much or how little. In other words don't worry about it for you can't change one thing that is ordained to come into your life by worrying about it. In fact the worry will probably just make it worse. So how should we think about this?
In my own case I have tried to fill my mind (let God fill my mind) with other positive thoughts. I had cancer in 1987 and God let me live through it with the help of a surgeon. In that trial I learned to trust my wife and appreciate her and to put her cares ahead of my own stubborn attitude. I didn't want to go to the doctor because I was trusting in healing from God. I was fasting and lost about 25 pounds and was still alert and working full time. Of course, as soon as the pain went away I began to forget the lesson AND to selfishly put some worry back onto my wife's mind. Finally, I gave up my selfish ego and at my wife's pleading, let the physician help me.
Another point is that I learned that life is about coming to realize that we, apart from God, are nothing. We are made totally self centered and we spend out lives thinking mostly about ourselves, UNLESS God intervenes in our hearts and minds to correct us in this life. As we know, many live out their lives without ever knowing God. The rest of us, the few who have been called out of the world have begun to receive enlightenment, we have begun to be shown the real purpose of life and to learn that we can have a personal, one on one, father to child relationship with our creator.
However, God is still the same, God decided that we all would die someday, somehow and God does not change. We all are mortal and designed from the beginning to wear out, to run down, to get so tired of the cares of THIS life that we just want to lay down and sleep. So, whether it is cancer or heart failure or just living a good life until we reach 100 anniversaries, what does it matter? All suffer in some manner. Even those who have very little pain in their lives still have to deal with disappointment, temptation, and many other daily concerns that pester us and make us ask WHY.
A point I would like to make here is that disease, dis-ease is normal. When we are children we usually don't worry about the purpose of life or how long it will last. When we get older we begin to learn and to understand that we will die eventually. Wearing out is normal and to be expected and to be accepted by those whom God has given knowledge. Why is cancer any different? Isn't cancer just a normal result of the breaking down of our bodies immune system?
In my way of thinking, now that I have had cancer twice, it is not a sentence or correction from God. I prefer to think of it as a normal result of how I lived my life and of what I inherited from my folks because of the way they lived their lives and the way our bodies are designed as temporary vessels for the human spirit and so forth back to Adam and Eve. Cancer is debilitating and often painful and frightening. With some it is more like a numbing soreness that won't go away and that keeps a person awake at night even though they seem healthy in other ways. So how is cancer any worse than severe arthritis or a traumatic and painful pregnancy or watching your child waste away from a mental illness like depression? There are many ways to suffer and many ways to die, but in the end the lesson is that we are mortal and all die unless there is a resurrection to a better life in the Kingdom of God.
God in His wisdom is teaching us a HARD lesson that all must learn eventually and the purpose of the lesson is hidden until God's spirit works with our mind to make the lesson clear and to develop compassion for others who need God's love imparted through us to each of them. Without God in our lives, all is vanity and it takes suffering along with the spirit of Christ to guide us into all knowledge and into perfect understanding.
I hope my personal story helped a little. Bob
Bob