Hi Bunni, dear Sister, dont beat yourself up too much because of what you said. You are absolutely right, He is in total control, of you, your mind, your heart, and your mouth. I have heard Ray say, He (Daddy God) will get you to really hate your sins before He changes you, so yes I will pray for your patience. We are all sinful in some way.
Ecc 7:20 For there is no righteous man in the earth Who does good and never sins.
Rom 3:23 for all sinned and are wanting of the glory of God.
Dont try to be too righteous, or too wicked either.
Ecc 7:16 Do not be abundantly self-righteous, And do not be thinking yourself superlatively wise; Why should you make yourself desolate?
Ecc 7:17 Do not be abundantly wicked, and do not be frivolous; Why should you die when it is not your time?
Ecc 7:18 It is good that you hold to this, And from that also do not let your hand rest; For he who is fearful of Elohim shall come forth from them all."
Mat 13:29 But he said, Nay; lest while ye gather up the tares, ye root up also the wheat with them.
Mat 13:30 Let both grow together until the harvest: and in the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, Gather ye together first the tares, and bind them in bundles to burn them: but gather the wheat into my barn.
Praying for your Patience
Peace & Love, G.Driggs