Praying for you Shammie, you are right where He wants you. If you are doing this all for the Lord, remember;
Mat 6:31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
Mat 6:32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
Mat 6:33 BUT SEEK YE FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Mat 6:34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
Second witness:
Luk 12:29 And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.
Luk 12:30 For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things.
Luk 12:31 But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Luk 12:32 Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.
I pray and hope that these words of our Lord Jesus will help your faith. It certainly helped mine, because my wife and I have not worked for a long time, yet He is faithful, always providing, one way or another, provided we seek Him first, truly seeing, hearing and most importantly doing.
If you are truly seeking His Kingdom, which I believe you are, then He will most definitely take care of you and yours.
Love, Peace and Spiritual Discernment to you Sister, and remember;
Mat 4:4 But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.
Luk 4:4 And Jesus answered him, saying, It is written, That man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God.
I sincerely hope this helps, G.Driggs
p.s. May I send you a pm?