Hello, Thank you for your kind words Judy. I know God is holding me up. This is one of the hardest things I have had to face. I can deal when it is me. But, when it is someone I love now that is so hard. But, it is great joy that God has decided to share his truths with me. I know, his timing is perfect even when it seems not like anything I would have choose.
Teresea, had her first three days of chemo treatment last Wed. Thurs. and Friday. This is the first set. She has to go three times a week every other week for 6 months. They give her a shot of nutrition and something to help her cell count.
Praise God she has not had any nausea. She is back at work today for the first time since her surgery eight weeks ago. She works at womens health at the hospital. I just talked to her on the phone to see how it is going. It is going good. She seemed upbeat. I still do not know what is going to be God's will on this. Having cancer in colon that has gone to the liver and pancrease sounds impossible. But, I pray that the tumor in the colon alerted them in time that the liver and pancreas is not to severe. I have no doubt in my mind that God can heal her. I just don't know his will in all of this.
God has blessed me that even with all the pain in my body, I have been able to go out and shop for clothes with her. I have got to spend some beautiful moments with her. She mainly thinks of her Mother who needs her and my nephew Ethan. I think of Teresea and not myself. She is like my daughter. You all know the story.
I am not ashamed to say sometimes I cry. I am not angry at God. I am not saying I like this. But, it is what it is. I have a wonderful Husband who is there for all of my family as well as me. I am blessed by God even during this trial.
I am not keeping you updated just because of Me. I am doing this in hope that anyone who is going through trials can see how God is working in our life.
He is never away from us. If, anyone goes away it is us. I wish, I could express how much I love all of you. For, a while I had not been able to read much of Ray's papers or my Bible. But, my one on one time with God is almost constant. I know, that I am still growing in Christ. This experience is part of that.
Just, wanted to let you all know that I love you. God has given me so many blessings even while I receive the trials. I cry, but those tears make me strong.
I no longer want to run. There is no where to run to but to God.
I believe like Ray. Any healing that Teresea receives is all from God not from chemo or nutrition.
I do not know what trials all of you are going through. But, keep the faith. God still loves us even when we are angry, hurt, or wonder why? The why in our life will always be answered after we go through the storm. Someday, I will know why we are going through this.
God made some strong women coming out of our family. My Mother is 88 and she has been shopping with my niece and buying her things she needs. This has been real hard on my Mother, but I see her strength. I know, it comes from God.
Well, God Bless you all and he will keep you.
In His Love,
Marlene