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Does God cause all things to happen?
firefly77:
Judy,
Don't feel like you are alone in this walk and how you think and feel about it. I have learned in the last couple of years to step into my "bubble"; it is safe there, and I don't feel the pain of my sin and the pain of other peoples' sin. However, the tragedy is becoming so "numb" that you end up being somewhat oblivious to what is going on outside that "bubble" and cannot discern when somebody is hurting and needs your help. I need the bubble to survive... I can either cry a lot, be vulnerable, become so tenderhearted that I am at the breaking point, or go into my bubble, numb out, and feel very little of anything. At least, I seem to function and can concentrate on my studies and the task in front of me.
I had an extremely hard day today; this day must have been the umpteenth time in my life that I had to scrap my dreams and start from scratch. It's like a giant glass bowl that falls to the ground and shatters into a million pieces. The only comfort in all of this is the knowledge that God IS ON CONTROL. Right now I am as frightened as any child would be in a thunderstorm... my bubble is not accessible either and the true emotions are surfacing. I don't like it, but I don't want to fight God's work in my life anymore; I am weary of trying. I want to be flexible if I need to be and letting go of (my) dreams may be part of the growing process.
Judy, I wish I had all the answers; I don't!!!
Angie
aqrinc:
Hi Judy,
So you get those day often too; well sorry to say but so do i, everyday. Here is the secret to overcoming that i use; run as fast as possible to GOD.
1Jn 1: 6-10 (Rotherham)
6 If we say—We have, fellowship, with him! and, in darkness, are walking, we are dealing falsely, and not doing the truth;
7 Whereas, if, in the light, we are walking, as, he, is in the light, we have, fellowship one with another, and, the blood of Jesus his Son, is cleansing us from all sin.
8 If we say—Sin, have we none! we are deceiving, ourselves, and, the truth, is not in us.
9 If we are confessing our sins, faithful, is he and, righteous—that he should forgive us our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
10 If we say—We have not sinned! false, are we making, him, and, his word, is not in us.
Oh Yes, you have my Love guaranteed; everyday.
george :-* ;D :-*.
cjwood:
--- Quote from: aqr on September 27, 2009, 10:53:57 PM --- Here is the secret to overcoming that i use; run as fast as possible to GOD.
--- End quote ---
AND, even if and when we fall down 'running back to Him as fast as possible', HE can pick us up and put us right back on the road we were on, 'running as fast as possible to Him'.
angie and judy,
i love you ladies.
claudia
Amrhrasach:
This is a great thread.
My last year has been spent with many hours verbally and thoughtfully flogging myself to the point of what seems like I’ve beat myself to a walking pile of quivering mental jello. Most of it stemming from attempts to understand that there is no such thing as freewill. So I’ve tried to convince myself that we do only God’s will. Ray says: “The human will is not free to change anything that God has pre-appointed. You will "will" according to the circumstances God places in your path. And you are not free to "will" otherwise.”
So how come I feel so rotten? Because I am rotten. But still, it is a hard thing to understand. And even with that I would flog myself even more for not being smart enough to “get it”, and apply it. It’s a vicious terrible cycle. So I really appreciate the comments from Marques: “Try not to become frustrated with spiritual truths that you have trouble understanding. Instead give God all glory & thanksgiving for the ones you DO UNDERSTAND. A good servant that is faithful with a little brings a reward similar as the servant faithful in much (Luke 19:12-19).”
And maybe that is just exactly Gods aim at this point. Of late one good result from this mental degradation is becoming abundantly clear and that is I will only mentally and spiritually understand that which God allows me to understand, and not one minute prior to that time will I “get” anything. And be thankful for what is understood at this point. It will lead to even better understandings.
So, I understand Roy…..and Judy…..and Angie.
It’s a humbling mental and emotional experience like no other. We are simply not in control of our spiritual growth. Sometimes it doesn’t seem like there is a method to the madness. So “trust” comes into play as well. Yet another lesson in God’s wheel of fortune.
The answers to the questions that Bob lifted from the BT site will be waited on with eager anticipation.
Gary
judith collier:
Angie, George, Claudia, Bob, Gary, Kathy, it is so confusing some times how we can be trapped in thoughts and can't get out and how just some kind and informative words from our sisters and brothers help so much. It is usually here that I reach out and that is because I trust all of you.
Just knowing we are not alone can boost us up! Someone said, " our relationship with God is not always vertical but horizontal also" and that is what helps me the most. Why are we so hard on ourselves when with others we are more than ready to come to their aid?
Is there really a devil, I know in scripture one tempted Jesus but truthfully I never put much stock in one tempting me, a little nobody. There must be because the tactics he uses are like that of a bully, getting us off by ourselves and driving us nuts. I am learning though not to have much confidence in my own ability. I do need to run and run fast to God like George said. Perhaps I will be more aware now that I am seeming to get this. Thanks everybody, love (God) does conquer and I am going to have to be more courageous in feeling my pain and really getting down that NO CONDEMNATION thought. Sin, yes, but repentance and forgiveness always.
I am doing so much better today and asking God to guard my mind which is carnal (I never thought of my mind as carnal before, just the rest of my body). Is that dumb or not!
How one little word can make a difference. Love and prayers for all of you in your trials. Judy
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