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Marlene:
I hate when I sin. Life does hurt. Looking at that Beast is not easy. Most, in life go through it thinking they are better or good as My Mother calls it. I am going through such trials and I have to admit it is hard to not loose your cool when you live with people who just as same as tell you that you are lost. That, hurts. I have to tell others who go through this I think of you who your family thinks you have gone over the edge. That, the ones in Babylon are good and have the apperance of doing good things.
I am not being judgemental. Far, from it. I felt anger today when I was being mistreated for my believe. What, I felt is anger that anyone thinks that God is
lower the men who do not believe in torture. My Mom and Sister were discussing it on the phone today. She was watching church on tv . You know, how some of it sounds good.
I hate that I felt this anger. I should have done better and just let them go. If, they have no interest to read it or learn truth it is not there fault. Now, I know I was presecuted for Christ. I just need more of Gods power to just walk away and ignore there remarks. I offer to let them read but they always have excuses.
I just hate myself that I got upset. I want to be like Christ. You all are so right. Its not easy to overcome the beast. So, I am right in there with you. I do not have the urge to go back.
Pray for me and I will pray for all of you. Right now, I just feel the trials mounting. The only thing I can say I stand firm in is that I believe what the Holy Spirit has shown me from what Ray has shared from the Holy Spirit.
In His Love,
Marlene
Ninny:
Marlene,
Marques posted something on another thread that spoke volumes to my heart..about sin, it was an answer to an email from Ray. here it is in part, it is a commentary on Hebrews 10:26
http://forums.bible-truths.com/index.php/topic,10791.msg93200.html#msg93200
"When one sins willfully or voluntarily, it means that he has lost his conscience about those particular sins. He feels no guilt nor shame for committing them. We all sin, but sin is not to "reign" over us, as Paul admonishes. When we sin, we should recognize it as sin, and feel shame, and repent, and go on. Once we feel no guilt nor shame, there only remains "judgment" which will assuredly remove (through fiery trials and purging) these "adversaries" that plague the human race."
When we feel bad over what we do then we know that we are listening to the Spirit of God! If we keep doing it without remorse then there is only judgment left to get rid of that sin! I far prefer the trials now than judgment later! I hate the trial, I hate the pain, but God is the one who is in control and we are being pulled in the way He wants us to go!!
Kathy :-* :'(
Marlene:
Thanks, Kathy. I already told my Mother I was sorry I got so upset. But, I also told her I am not sorry what I believe. Just, sorry I was not more forgiving or compassionate. I know, I am going throgh my judgment now. I praise God he corrects me and shows me the Beast. I know, judgment in the second ressurection will be Gods wrath. I want to take my judgement now. I know the Holy Spirit is correcting me. I use to be the exact opposite while in the church system. I thought anyone who taught anything like Ray teaches was lost. I thought it was the unchurched people who were lost.
Now, I know God can pull them out anytime he pleases.
I know Gods judgments are righteous and true.
The trials, I am going through with my Niece ill and my Sister and myself and other trials. I know, what they are and I have peace. I was standing in defense for God. I just needed to tame it down and let go. I still stood up for what I believe and that I am not going back. I still love the ones lost in Babylon. I know, God wants that too.
All, this just caught me off my Guard. I am glad for my conscience, other wise I could be something else. I try to love first. I know, I need forgiveness just like those who hurt us. I need to look at them like Christ does. It does not mean I have to approve of there false doctrines.
I know that my anger today was wrong. I told God I am sorry and also told my Mother I am sorry. I have been down in bed alot with severe pain. Seems when I go through these times it is harder for me to handle stress. But, I am learning.
I was just ashamed of myself. I read that article the other day Marques posted. I have been trying to read Ray's articles over again. But, often God uses others post in here to help me with what I am going through.
Thank Kathy I am with you on the judgement now thing.
In His Love,
Marlene
cjwood:
--- Quote from: Marlene on October 25, 2009, 08:26:12 PM ---I know, judgment in the second ressurection will be Gods wrath. I want to take my judgement now. I know the Holy Spirit is correcting me. I use to be the exact opposite while in the church system. I thought anyone who taught anything like Ray teaches was lost. I thought it was the unchurched people who were lost.
Now, I know God can pull them out anytime he pleases.
I am glad for my conscience, other wise I could be something else.
I need forgiveness just like those who hurt us. I need to look at them like Christ does. It does not mean I have to approve of there false doctrines.
I know that my anger today was wrong. I told God I am sorry and also told my Mother I am sorry. I have been down in bed alot with severe pain. Seems when I go through these times it is harder for me to handle stress. But, I am learning.
I was just ashamed of myself.
thank you marlene for posting these words. they uplifted me and caused me to praise God our Father.
claudia
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stephen:
Hi There, I battled with drink for many years. The more I wanted to stop, the more I drank and the bigger the guilt complex. My biggest problem, as with you, were my friends and I can still clearly remember the day that I won the battle of the bottle. My friends came to visit, I told them to excuse me for a few minutes and went to my bedroom and asked God for His mercy in this situation and to give me the strength to say NO! I don't want to drink. God honoured my prayer, and except for 2 occasions afterwards when I almost faltered but once again resisted with prayer, I have never looked back.
I'm not laying down a formula. I only want to encourage you. Know that God has a time for you. You must just persevere and pray.
I will be praying for you
God Bless
Stephen
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