Love of Truth, I can say at age 4 , I knew there was a God. At Age, 5 I told a lie. My parents found it out. I really don't know why I lied about it because there was no need to. Nothing, to hide. I knew, then that I was a sinner. We had a large Bible that set on my Mothers Coffee table. Before, I could read I would look at the pictures. We never went to church much untill a littler latter. But, we had many trials in our family. So, my parents never went much.
I used God as my best friend. I always thought he loved and protected me. When, I was 12 I asked God why did I always repent but nothing ever changed much in my life. It never lasted.Then, life began and I began to sin more. God, brought me to my knees and told me to come back to him when I was 25. I repented of my sins he showed me at that time, at home in my apartment the first year of my marriage. That, day I begged him to never let me go. My Husband and I then entered a church and was there until about two years ago. God has been faithful to me even when I have not been to him.
I began to question all of the different religous believes and all the different demoniations and I had what could have been a deadly experience. I thought, I had failed God and desearved to go to hell. I began to wish I could die from the thoughts of hell and then afraid to die. I was in a spiritual prison. God choose to teach me his truths when I was 53. I am 55 now. It is an amazing journey. The night God set me free from my Spiritual Prison I begged him again. I said, God I do not believe I have all your truths . That night I typed in Hell and Ray Smiths website came up. I read for a year and then joined. But, even then I did not know what many of the younger ones understood. But, now I repent and I see him working in me. I keep repenting and I wait now on him to show me his truths. I have been blessed here by many of the Brothers and Sisters that have helped me and guided me with what God has given them.
This journey is a life time of experiences and will continue as God helps me to endure till the end. I never, saw what all my past meant until I had been through it and looked back on my life. Every time I begged God, he gave me what I needed. He caused me to beg him. I know, this is truth . I have to say it helps you discern false teachers, since he has showed me many of his truths I can see them. If, I feel my peace leave, I know it is not the truth. I might, add while lost in Babylon, I had no peace. I do not see how anyone can believe in hell and have peace with God.
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In His Love,
Marlene
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