Hi Patrick,
I do agree with Kat and the others. You have to work out your problems before you can be a good husband and God always has to come first.That said,I know what it felt like to want to find my true mate and failed at every corner. The loneliness was almost unbareble. I know you think you're ready for you're mate, but have you ever thought that God is still working to get your mate ready for you?
I'm going to use my husband and I for an example. My husband was already 17 when I was borne, but God already knew we where going to be mates. Problem was...I was born on a different continent (Germany). So I met and married an american soldier, who brought me to Colorado...got divorced...met some guy from Childress,TX...moved there...broke up...met a guy from Denison,TX...moved there... got married. OK, God got me within 30 min of Roy now. The thing is, if we would have come across each other then it wouldn't have worked. We were still from two different worlds. While Roy was into drugs and about to go to jail for it I never even got close to that stuff or the people that used it. Well, God got a hold of Roy and he even got ahead of me spiritually. While my marriage was going down the tubes again, I started going to a new church. it was the same church as Roy's but in a different location (30 min away). The same main pastor is over all of them. To shorten the story, Roy decided one day to visit the on I attended. A week and a half later he worked up the nerve to talk to me and 12 days later we were married.
So you see,God had to do a lot of work in BOTH of us.
I hope this helped a little.
God bless,
Silvia