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I don't know what to believe.
Lupac:
Thank you, Kat and Dave. It's hard to let go of physical rituals, for me. I used to think they were necessary. I'll keep studying. Kat, explaining the Corinthians verse really hit home. Thanks.
--- Quote from: John from Kentucky on February 11, 2010, 09:53:22 PM ---Hi Lupac,
I may be wrong (not the first time in my life). If I am wrong, then I apologize in advance. But. But!! Are you kidding me? Are you just pulling our chain here to get a reaction? Do you really not get it?
I'm just a 56 year old man, over the hill, and hoping not to be buried under it (I least just not yet). When I left the Worldwide Church of God about fifteen years ago, I had had my fill of religion. I told God that never again would I listen to any human talk or teach about God. I told Him that if He wanted me to be religious, then He would have to make Jesus appear directly to me and teach me the truths of God. I was in a spiritual wilderness for the last fifteen years, a stranger and sojourner on the earth.
Then, last October, I ran across this website. Wow! Double Wow!! Reading and listening to Ray was like putting my finger into a light socket. The Spirit of God runs strong in Ray. And this Spirit leaps across the words into ones soul.
This website is not Sunday school kindergarten class, but is like spiritual Marine Corps boot camp. Don't you feel it deep within you? Are you kidding me?
Lupac, if you are sincere, then I do apologize deeply. Stick with it, and God will show you all his ways in due time. But, if you're just kidding around, be careful.
John
--- End quote ---
Why would I be joking about something as serious as this? I'm trying to break down a mental barrier I have about God. Growing up, I felt nothing of God, except fear and self- unworthiness. At this moment, I feel nothing but fear that these wonderful truths of God aren't true. But God is helping me overcome this. Thank you for your concern. 8)
LiberatedEagle:
Hey Lupac,
I experienced a lot of what you're experiencing right now. I was so afraid that James was referring to me when he spoke of a double-minded man being unstable in all his ways. I really wanted to know God, but what I didn't realize was He really wanted ME to know Him first. You know the part in the movie "Matrix" were Neo finally finds Morpheus, but Morpheus tells him he'd been looking for him his whole life? It's kinda synonymous with God and his chosen. The only reason I was never satisfied with the "idea" of God was because He wanted to reveal himself to me in truth and spirit and nothing less would ever suffice. Sure I fellowshipped with the scribes and pharisees of today and felt I was doing everything I was supposed to do, but that was the problem, I WAS DOING IT.
One of the main "bumps in the road" christians will never in this life get over is the myth that they must choose God back after He chooses them. Did any of the disciples choose God back? No. They all forsook him including Peter who totally DENIED Jesus; Have you denied Jesus to the point you cursed to affirm disassociation with Christ? I doubt it. I mean how scary is THAT to deny the man who gave you the power to walk on water!! Only after the power of God was given to them did they truly rep Jesus.
Lupac, you are no different than Peter, Paul, John, me and all of the other brothers and sisters God has chosen. He's going to make sure you understand that it's not according to your intelligence, your wisdom, and your strength, but only His power. If you go back and look at some of my earlier posts I was stumped. I couldn't understand how I was supposed to be the righteous individual, but still smoked mary jane EVERYDAY. It was tormenting for me up until the point where I was literally about to commit suicide. I didn't want to be around anyone. But in due time God gave me a glimpse of His will and purpose for my life and encouraged me to just believe He loves me and that He will make sure I don't end up a failure.
Stop worrying about what you don't understand, but ya know what I'm not going to even finish that statement because one day you'll look back and see why God allowed you to have the mindset you have now. Just know that God gotcha right where He wants you.
Be Encouraged Bro,
Charles
ARisingSon:
Lupac,
I feel your pain. As most of us here can testify, we have gone through similar experiences as Father has drawn us to Him. When Father dealt with me for two years('95 & '96) I felt like I'd been pulled through a knot hole. The object of His dealings was to bring me to the end of myself. When He got me to the point of despairing of life itself, that is I no longer had the desire to live because I saw my absolute inability to live my life. At this point, Father showed me His awesome love that He had for me. When He revealed His love to me at the time of bringing me to see myself as a worthless, useless piece of junk---IT BROKE ME!!! The realization of His awesome love drove me to my knees in total surrender to His leading of my life. The heavens opened to give me "the peace that surpasses all understanding". From that moment till this very instant Holy Spirit has given me a continual feast of "Manna from Heaven". Whereas, before I was blind--NOW I SEE!! Glory to God for He alone can open blind eyes to see and melt hearts of stone to worship and praise Him!! What I went through was my "hell" experience. The same "hell" that everyone must experience. So, hang in there and be assured that Father will,in His own time for you, bring you into His Family. Grace be with you. Earl
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