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Feeling Weary
smeacham:
Please humor me tonight. Life is hard, and I usually bear it with a smile and persevere. However, tonight I feel a great weight upon me - a weight that presses me to fall before God and pray. I just need to let it out in a safe environment, surrounded by friends and saints. Forgive me disjointed thoughts - my brain doesn't work so good this late.
Oh Father,
What a life it's been. You have been gracious to me and sustained me without fail. When I stop and think of sorrows and troubles, I would collapse if not for You. I'm not strong enough. The faith and understanding You've given me - they sustain me, and You lift me up with Your strong right hand. Tomorrow it will be OK and I'll re-enter the fray. You'll protect me and allow me to focus on one thing at a time. But tonight Lord, I need you to hold me.
So many that I love have abandoned me. They avoid me and curse me, but mostly they dishonor themselves and You. Please forgive me when it's my fault, Lord, and make me more like You next time. My own daughter disowns and hates me, yet she accuses me of what she herself does. Others believe her and enable her, to her own harm. Forgive her and forgive them, Lord, and forgive me my own hard heart because I so easily want to give up or get mad anymore. My wife hurts all the time with so many ailments and so much stress, yet she lends me her own strength when mine fails. Bless her, Lord, and bless You for giving her to me.
I used to feel affirmed by my work, Lord, and became proud. Thank You for humbling me, as much as it hurts. Please keep me that way, no matter what I may say. I know it is what I need. Thank you for providing for my family and I throughout it all.
Why do I turn to others for affirmation? My only real comfort is in You! It still hurts when my teachers and mentors of old turn their backs. Why? It hurts and troubles me so much when my peers and coworkers do not heed my warnings, and follow a path to destruction. Sometimes I scream "STOP!" and I always want to, but nobody listens. Does Jesus feel this way when He shows the people the way?
I walk the path You've laid before me. Oh Lord, are You not the God of heaven? You alone rule over all nations. Power and might are only found in Your hand, and nobody can withstand You. Please confirm my steps each day and every hour. Do not let me go astray, and please don't let me waste any more precious time on things that macht nichts.
Thank you for the peace you give me, and the restful heart. I still feel weary, but now I feel so much better. God, bless those that love You, and keep them going as you do me.
I love You, Lord. Amen
Akira329:
I feel like this.............
Psa 6:6 I am weary with my groaning; all the night make I my bed to swim; I water my couch with my tears.
Psa 69:3 I am weary of my crying: my throat is dried: mine eyes fail while I wait for my God.
Then I read this...........
Jer 31:25 For I have satiated the weary soul, and I have replenished every sorrowful soul.
You have found a great place for safe care my friend.
Antaiwan
cjwood:
steve, i have thought of you many times. wondering how you are doing and missing your comments in our safe place. i have read your prayer and i also lift you up to God the Father. He IS faithful, and He will NEVER leave you, nor forsake you. i am sorry for the pain you have feel because of loved ones turning their back on you. but be assured that your God and Father will NOT turn His back on you. you are looking to Him and He sees you, and knows the hurt in your heart. stand strong in the faith that He has given you, and continue to rest your hope on Him.
claudia
G. Driggs:
--- Quote from: Steve Meacham on March 10, 2010, 02:21:10 AM ---
Why do I turn to others for affirmation? My only real comfort is in You! It still hurts when my teachers and mentors of old turn their backs. Why? It hurts and troubles me so much when my peers and coworkers do not heed my warnings, and follow a path to destruction. Sometimes I scream "STOP!" and I always want to, but nobody listens. Does Jesus feel this way when He shows the people the way?
--- End quote ---
I have been asking myself the same question lately Steve, every time I seek the affirmation or approval of others I get let down. It is not their fault, I think God wants us to seek His and only His affirmation and approval and to find comfort in Him alone. To me it's like that song "looking for love in all the wrong places".
You ask if Jesus ever felt this way when they do not listen or heed warnings, I think so. Here is what Jesus said on His way to Jerusalem before His crucifixion.
Luke 19:41 And, when he drew near, beholding the city, he wept over it, saying––
Luke 19:42 If thou hadst got to know, in this day, even thou, the conditions of peace. . . But, now, are they hid from thine eyes:
Luke 19:43 Because days will have come upon thee, that thine enemies will throw around a rampart against thee, and enclose thee; and hem thee in from every side,––
Luke 19:44 And will level thee with the ground, and thy children within thee, and will not leave, stone on stone, within thee: because thou didst not get to know the season of thy visitation.
Someday they will see and welcome Him Whom they did not know.
Matt 23:37 “O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, the city that kills the prophets and stones those who are sent to it! How often would I have gathered your children together as a hen gathers her brood under her wings, and you would not!
Matt 23:38 See, your house is left to you desolate.
Matt 23:39 For I tell you, you will not see me again, until you say, ‘Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.’”
Hang in there bro, all is of God, as I'm sure you know.
Peace, G.Driggs
Deborah-Leigh:
Steve
I recognize your cry. It sounds all too familiar to mine! ;) :)
--- Quote ---It still hurts when my teachers and mentors of old turn their backs. Why?
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They are not your/our teachers or mentors Steve. They have been your/our blind guides but they will not always be blind. You know that each one of us had to be one of them to be called, dragged out of errors and Babylonian Egyptian Pagan false beliefs. It is the Plan of God and the process of His work.
--- Quote ---It hurts and troubles me so much when my peers and coworkers do not heed my warnings, and follow a path to destruction. Sometimes I scream "STOP!" and I always want to, but nobody listens.
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Deaf ears can not listen. Blind eyes can not see. You/we cannot do God’s job. It is only the Spirit of Christ that can stop anyone. No yelling, no shouting, no screaming and not even putting a stadium size light into their eyes will open their ears or their eyes. Ray has written about the same such thing when he was first to use this analogy of a light in blind eyes still results in blind eyes.
Your/our warnings are futile and so they should be because NO ONE is appointed to a path of destruction as an end in itself but as a means where God will show His Mercy and only as a means to an end when God will be all in all. That is ALL in ALL not just a few and everyone else goes to Hell. No!
--- Quote ---Does Jesus feel this way when He shows the people the way?
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Jesus knows the beginning from the end. He is GOD. God will have all is Will done that is to save, heal, correct and set right everyone. Every knee will bow not just the few. You know all this don’t you Steve - course you do!
I am glad you feel better. You have recieved some timeless comforts here in what has already been shared with you by others.
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