I don't know if you remember several months ago I asked for prayer for my brother-in-law who has lung and throat cancer..Well, he went to the doctor this past week and has discovered his cancer has spread...over his lungs and into his liver...the one in his throat is gone..
Here is where I want a heart more like God's...I don't like to say bad things about anyone, but you know in the natural you want to judge and condemn you want to say...."well, look he never stopped smoking..." I am not going to say everything that has gone through my mind...even though God knows what I have thought! My brother-in-law and my sister have NOT lived exemplary lives before God...but have I? NO! I look at my sister and her husband in a different way, now...not like others who are saying, "Well, look how they have lived their lives! No wonder he's suffering look how he has wanted others to suffer..."
Now I feel pity, now I feel like..what a sad and wasted life! What must break God's heart about the way my brother in law lives is the same thing that breaks his heart about me!! I can look at my sister's husband whom I have known most of my life...and think...if God is in control and drags us over the hot coals I pray that the evil will be burned out of me so that I won't judge! I just pray for God's mercy on my brother-in-law...for His gentle Hand to have mercy in whatever lies ahead for him...I think he doesn't have a lot of time left, he looks bad..but I know,too that God is the one who decides when we live and when we die..
So I would ask that you pray for God's mercy in every circumstance for my sister and her family and pray for me that I would have the heart of God to have mercy and kindness for them, too..and that I would have words of comfort and life for them..I don't know if any of this makes sense to you...I just don't know how I'm supposed to act/react to this...but I know in any of it I want to reflect the love that God has for all of his children! The same kind of love that He has for me!
Thank you, as always, my sweet family of pray-ers...
Kathy