It appears that some things in my past (childhood) are affecting me very severely in the present. I look older than I am (in some people’s opinion) and I have a fear that resides deep within. I did have a memory (that appeared to be accurate) that returned 15 years ago or so and it was of something quite horrible, when I was 4 years old (and I don’t know where I get the 4 from, it just seems to be accurate) someone used my mouth for what a man would normally use a woman for, I hope you know what I mean. There is other stuff that I can’t remember, and I only know that because sometimes I have shaking (trembling) in my stomach area – my emotions WON’T let be remember. I am shaking as I write this. The problem is, I think, that I feel TREMENDOUSLY guilty about something, but I can’t remember why. I have been advised just to continue and God will deal with it but I just want SO MUCH TO BE FREE, and FREE NOW.
Would you please pray for me? I am making a serious request. Seriously, if my memory came back and it destroyed me I would rather be destroyed than not remember.