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A good-bye of sorts, and a request for prayer
bambam:
Hello Everyone,
I have not asked for prayer on here before because I am not that great at praying for others like I should :-\, but I am going to just share a bit about my situation and ask for prayer.
My husband and I are struggling because of the truth. I understand that the truth divides-I know that for a fact now. But I have decided to stay in the church with him because He is the assistant pastor there and what I have tried to share with him, he has in turn shared with the pastor, who has decided, under council of his father(a pastor as well), to give us thirty days to sort this out and I guess if I don't change my hubby will have to "step down". To avoid a fiasco of sorts, I just thought I would stay with him there and be a good wife, although my heart is not in the church, it is with my husband.
This is all so very hard!! Who knew that seeking the truth would cause so much hulabaloo. I honestly don't think I realized, and looking at it now, it all seems so very childish. Like little children on the playground bullying the other little kids into playing with them.
That isn't to say that I think that I am being bullied like a child bullies another child, but I do feel like I have been threatened. And my options are 1.) Hurt my family, friends, break up a church family, be labeled as heretical by the world as I know it, lose my husbands heart, etc., and 2.) Recant and all is forgiven and 3.) Shut-up and be good and this will all go away.
Although those things were not said, and I know my husband loves me dearly as well as others who are involved, that is how I feel.
I have been unhappy going to church for a long time. The sadness has been seen by others, and been commented on(to the pastor, mind you, not to me). A few people have been concerned for my welfare but have not actually let me know about it. Anyways, alot has been going on in my life in the last 5 months. My Dad died in December, and then My wonderful Gramma a few weeks ago. I think it has all opened up a sadness in me along with the whole church thing.
But, I told my hubby that I would go to church with him and do whatever it is that he wanted to do, but I will not think what he wants me to think. Though I have much to learn, what I have learned is continually reiterated to me as I read and study the scriptures for myself. I am amazed and blown away by what God shows me-I can't go back. Even sitting in church listening to the pastor preach, I see totally different things than he is preaching.
I love my husband and want to be a good wife to him and a good mom to my kids and that is my focus right now. Maybe someday, when my kids have grown, things will change. I don't know. I just ask for prayer for us. I need wisdom, the grace to say and do the right things, strength and courage. I pray for my hubby to see what I see. He is a good man. I know God is in control, and I have peace in that!
My hubby has asked me once again to leave the forum, and so, for him, I once again must leave. I know I do not post alot, but I read ALOT. I have been so grateful for this place to know the truth together with other fellow believers. You have become my siblings. I may from time to time pop in, but I have to stay away as much as possible. Thank you for having this place. God be with you all!!
Beth :'(
Ninny:
Sweet Beth...we'll always be here for you! I know where you're coming from and I know it's hard...You know that God knows, too..He knows your heart above all things and He will open the doors for you...I will be praying for you and please remember that only God knows what is in a person's heart...so be peaceful, Beth and serve God and God alone be a friend to your beloved husband and God will honor it in you!!
Love you, girl!
Kathy :-* :'(
Deborah-Leigh:
Your kind of pain breaks my heart Bambam.
--- Quote ---But I have decided to stay in the church with him because He is the assistant pastor there and what I have tried to share with him, he has in turn shared with the pastor, who has decided, under council of his father(a pastor as well), to give us thirty days to sort this out and I guess if I don't change my hubby will have to "step down".
--- End quote ---
I know you see the above as your reason but I see this as God Causing you to OBEY your husband and to stay in the Word of God that says :
Eph 5:22 Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands, as to the Lord.
Eph 5:23 For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church; and He is the Savior of the body.
Eph 5:24 Therefore as the church is subject to Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in everything.
I see an amazing reward for you that the Lord prepares for you as He is the One guiding and sustaining you through your suffering you learn obedience and deeper love for Him and your family which He has given to you.
God has a purpose for what you are going through. I am glad you are not rebelling against either your husband or your God.
God IS making you into His most beautiful Image Beth. Be encouraged.
Arc
Marlene:
My heart goes out to you Bambam. Arc, said every thing that I feel.
My Husbands family think that I am off track. But, I don't have to live with them. God does know your heart. That, should help you alot endure this hard time. God has a plan and it will all turn out good some time.
I have been blessed that my Husband does not care what they think about us not going to church. They won't even take a look at what I believe. I think because they are afraid they will be deceived.
You have the Truth and God is with you and can help you carry on.
In His Love,
Marlene
Roy Coates:
Beth,
Been there, done that, got the T-shirt and tattoo to prove it.
My pastor used to say "you can ask me anything" until I started presenting him with the truth. He would bounce all over different topics and not ansewer. I knew it was pointless to try and convince him of anything. I spoke to him privately and gave him my resignation letter(deacon,usher, early morning prayer service and the lawn and snow removal guy). I was not willing to bash or argue just that God had something else for me to do. Because I was unable to present him with a precise plan of God that included an affiliated church system he was offended and sent my emails to others in the church. I was hurt. I still miss the folks there, I hate their doctrines and haven't been back.
My prayer for you is one of strength to "endure" these trials. You will emerge a better person. Grace, peace understanding wisdom and comfort to boldly defend the Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Honor your husband and family, and that God's will not yours be done. Amen
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