Hello brothers and sisters,
My gratitude for your prayers and sympathy is indescribable. Thank you very much.
Its very painful,but God has gave me peace in this storm. Now I know why He was leading me from all external sources for the past 4-6 months, laying it on my heart to seek Him (within me) with all my heart mind and soul, to boldly say," I have to have you Father, and nothing else, all is from you, out of you, everything I want and need is in you. You are in me, let me feel you as one together.
God prepared me for a parents greatest fear. His breath is my breath. I feel Him. Today I look in the mirror and I don't see me. I see my Heavenly Father, and His love that is endless.
My son is one big step closer to home. He will not have to suffer in this life anymore.
All of the family on the mothers side is what my sorrow and pain is for. They are beyond hearing and seeing. I tried to share with my daughter; Roy's twin, something about God, and right away I knew she was ready to eat my lunch. I spent 5 minutes with her, and haven't been able to go back.I have stayed at home by myself worshiping and praising God.
Family night is Sunday. I already know I will be be facing all the questions of why would God do this. God is in me; He will answer their questions. I know that they will see Him in me. I also know that some will see the peace in me and find it offensive. God won't just be with me; He will be in me as one.
Peace
Roy