thank you all. But i feel i am a helpless case. God uses people for evil soemtimes, I forgot which verse it is but its in the bible. I feel emotionally numb and unable to express myself anymore. all these years of being mentally abused and manipulated has taken a toll on me.
L Ray is right, God does creat evil for the good of others and im the evil one. Im gonna stop here now.
Hi Silent Loner.
Welcome to the forum. From one who mostly keeps to herself as well. When you are ready to socialise again try these rules.
Expect the best from people, prepare for the worst.
Do not burden the people you meet with too much trust, they will mostly let you down. They may not want to but do it despite themselves.
Take nothing personally, Believe this. Not the nastiest action towards you is ever personal. It is a reaction from something missing or damaged in that person.
Look for something to love in every soul you meet. That person might be trying to backstab you every chance they get but on the other hand they love and cherish their canary, Focus on the canary. Then you can still smile and greet that person and get some pleasure from their company.
Go well friend.
Jassy.