Hi Jessi,
Mat 10:34-39 "Do not think that I came to bring peace on earth. I did not come to bring peace but a sword. For I have come to "set a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law'; and "a man's enemies will be those of his own household.' He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it.
The path we must go down is not an easy one, persecutions are a certainty. It is a learning process ans so we don't always do the right thing at first, but with God leading, little by little, He helps us learn how to do the right thing. This is all part of the process of separating from the world, which would include our worldly family. But know you have many brothers and sisters here that love you and feel your sorrow.
Mark 10:29 And Jesus answering said, `Verily I say to you, there is no one who left house, or brothers, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or fields, for my sake, and for the good news',
v. 30 who may not receive an hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brothers, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and fields, with persecutions, and in the age that is coming, life age-during;
I will pray that you feel His comfort and encouragement, that what you are preparing for is well worth what we must bare at this time.
1Co 2:9 But as it is written, "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard," nor has it entered into the heart of man, "the things which God has prepared for those who love Him."
mercy, peace and love
Kat