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JohnMichael:
Hey Brothers & Sisters,
I'm torn as to if I should even ask for this, but I could really use some prayers from my spiritual family (that's how I see you all). By now you all know my story, so I won't go into the intimate details, but I'm feeling really down tonight. I know my relationship is going to end, and part of me is waiting desperately for that to happen, but another part of me feels like with each passing day, my heart's being ripped out of my chest a little bit more and a little bit more. Each time I see my current significant other (we went to the movies tonight), my heart breaks. I know its end is for the best, when God does bring it to pass, I am willing to give it up for Him. However, I'm still human. I still have that desire to love someone, and I feel like that's being ripped away from me, and in my moments of weakness, I feel it isn't fair. Therefore, I have this battle going on inside me, and I know He is winning, and I rejoice that He is and will win. I'm just having a moment of weakness right now, and if it's not too much to ask, I could really use my family's prayers. I know everyone has his/her own issues, so I feel bad for even asking. I think I'm going to go figuratively crawl into Father's lap, and just cry.
You all are in my prayers,
John
Grace:
--- Quote from: JohnMichael on April 23, 2011, 01:45:57 AM ---Hey Brothers & Sisters,
I'm torn as to if I should even ask for this, but I could really use some prayers from my spiritual family (that's how I see you all). By now you all know my story, so I won't go into the intimate details, but I'm feeling really down tonight. I know my relationship is going to end, and part of me is waiting desperately for that to happen, but another part of me feels like with each passing day, my heart's being ripped out of my chest a little bit more and a little bit more. Each time I see my current significant other (we went to the movies tonight), my heart breaks. I know its end is for the best, when God does bring it to pass, I am willing to give it up for Him. However, I'm still human. I still have that desire to love someone, and I feel like that's being ripped away from me, and in my moments of weakness, I feel it isn't fair. Therefore, I have this battle going on inside me, and I know He is winning, and I rejoice that He is and will win. I'm just having a moment of weakness right now, and if it's not too much to ask, I could really use my family's prayers. I know everyone has his/her own issues, so I feel bad for even asking. I think I'm going to go figuratively crawl into Father's lap, and just cry.
You all are in my prayers,
John
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Hi John,
I pray that the Father will give you the desire to do what He wants to do in your life. Just purely speaking from my own experience and nothing more, I can say that every time He has given me the desire to do something it has been accomplished. It goes back to the cause and effect that Ray talks about in his papers on "free will". Looking back, I can see that I never really accomplished anything in my life. I used to "think" it was me but now after reading Ray's papers on free will and really dwelling on it I can now see that it was not me at all. Our Father doesn't just give us a commandment to do something but, out of His love for us He also gives us the desire to accomplish His will. I mean, how much more could we even think or ask for? Most times, it didn't happen overnight. Some things have taken a really long time and some things haven't. He will give you the desires to do His will and it seems like He has already begun doing that, even though you are hurting right now. We don't get emptied of one thing that He doesn't fill us up with something so much better. You ARE weak but, HE is strong. It's HIS strength that will bring you into that place that He wants you to be. I am praying for you John.
Grace
JohnMichael:
--- Quote ---Hi John,
I pray that the Father will give you the desire to do what He wants to do in your life. Just purely speaking from my own experience and nothing more, I can say that every time He has given me the desire to do something it has been accomplished. It goes back to the cause and effect that Ray talks about in his papers on "free will". Looking back, I can see that I never really accomplished anything in my life. I used to "think" it was me but now after reading Ray's papers on free will and really dwelling on it I can now see that it was not me at all. Our Father doesn't just give us a commandment to do something but, out of His love for us He also gives us the desire to accomplish His will. I mean, how much more could we even think or ask for? Most times, it didn't happen overnight. Some things have taken a really long time and some things haven't. He will give you the desires to do His will and it seems like He has already begun doing that, even though you are hurting right now. We don't get emptied of one thing that He doesn't fill us up with something so much better. You ARE weak but, HE is strong. It's HIS strength that will bring you into that place that He wants you to be. I am praying for you John.
Grace
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He did put the desire in me to do right which is why I said I'm willing (He put it there) to give it up for Him. My flesh/physical nature/etc is not wanting to let go, and it's got me depressed tonight. It's true - I am weak, and He is strong.
--- Quote ---We don't get emptied of one thing that He doesn't fill us up with something so much better.
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Very true. Thank you so much for that, Grace. God used you to help mend a broken heart. :) May He bless you 1000 fold for that.
Thank you :)
John
cjwood:
i am giving you a warm hug tonite from texas john. you don't have to let go til you are ready. :)
claudia
JohnMichael:
--- Quote from: cjwood on April 23, 2011, 03:10:08 AM ---i am giving you a warm hug tonite from texas john. you don't have to let go til you are ready. :)
claudia
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Thank you, Claudia. I needed a hug. :)
--- Quote from: Abednego on April 23, 2011, 10:57:22 AM ---Hi John. I am still new here and still trying to figure stuff out. A big problem is prayer, because of the no free will, I am still trying to figure out my prayer life, as it has changed drastically. And the more I read, the more it changes.
I keep thinking of John 17:15:
I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
Whenever I see someone hurting my immediate reaction is God, get them out of that!!!! NOW!!!(More respectfully of course.)
Not understanding God's purposes and timeline, until I learn better I just ask for God to strengthen you as you go through your trials. I read the end of the story, I already know He wins.
I know I'm not the only one here that has a problem with being judgmental, there are plenty of posts about it. There are many in the world who would look at someone in your situation and immediately judge you. There will be a day in the future when you will be able to minister to others with a level of understanding some of us will never have.
Comes hand in hand with "been there, done that, got the t shirt to prove it".
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Thank you, Abednego. God answered your prayer and gave me strength.
I'm used to being judged by my fellow humans. Sometimes it's by what they say, and sometimes it's by the looks they give me. If Life were personified, a lot of times it feels like it's clobbering me with a cat o' nine tails, and there are times when humanity likes to join in and throw a few blows. However, God put in me the desire to forgive them, and to beg Him to forgive them and to not lay that sin to their charge, and to place any recompense for it on me instead. God knows the motivations of my heart because He put them there.
EDIT: Please, anyone reading this, do not take that as me trying to point fingers. That was not my intent at all. I was speaking in general. :) If anyone read this, and took it that way already, Please PLEASE forgive me.
--- Quote ---I know I'm not the only one here that has a problem with being judgmental, there are plenty of posts about it. There are many in the world who would look at someone in your situation and immediately judge you. There will be a day in the future when you will be able to minister to others with a level of understanding some of us will never have.
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You have no idea how much God used you to minister to me with this statement. That is probably the most uplifting thing that anyone has ever said to me, and I hope He blesses you 1000 fold for that. :)
Actually, God bless you all tremendously for lifting a brother up in time of heartache. :)
God Bless You All and Keep You Always,
John
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