It get's better Claudia but I know that is little comfort when your walking through it. When I dispatched my elderly Shepherd it was one of the darkest two weeks in my life. This may not be totally scripturally correct but it does speak to the heart.
IF IT SHOULD BE
If it should be that I grow weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done
For this last battle cannot be won.
You will be sad I understand,
Don't let grief then stay your hand.
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love for me must stand the test.
We've had so many happy years,
What is to come can hold no fears,
You'd not want me to suffer so,
The time has come to let me go.
Take me where my need they'll tend,
And please stay with me until the end.
Hold me firm and speak to me.
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time that you will see,
The kindness that you did for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.
Please do not grieve it must be you,
Who has this painful thing to do,
We've been so close, we two, these years
Don't let your heart hold back its tears.
For I am now in a better place,
And will be waiting to see your happy face.
So when you cross that final bridge,
Look for me...
I'll be standing next to the fridge.