Gena, thanks for your kind thoughts. I'm thrilled you are a happily married person. Please don't let your heart hurt for me. lol
I saw a post that Dave in Tenn wrote in the last six months, and he said something to the effect of: "
I'm not a victim of anything." I respect you a lot, Dave, but when I read that I felt the blood in the capillaries in my face pulsate. Who knew it felt so good to feel sorry for myself and to dwell on the things I didn't have? It was bad drama but it was at least some drama Nobody loves me, boo hoo. (Oh, I could put on a show!! I think I missed my calling as an actress.)
But Dave's right. Thank you, Dave!
The devil loves to get me where it hurts me most: Fear of abandonment and vanity. Not a recipe for happiness. lol I've been told I've got self-control. I may have self-control in the
relative sense and I thank God for it if I do.
I have to make a conscious effort to remind myself that being single has its good points, too, because it does!
We can either go through life feeling so lonely (which as Ray pointed out in a recent email is only a feeling and a subjective one at that), or go through life believing that God is not feeling sorry for us.
Who here hasn't fallen prey to the Hollywood Joker:
"All alone, aren't you? HA! Well, keep that up and you're not gonna like yourself a whole lot, I can tell ya that right now. And I am going to help you make it to that destination."
When you're fearful and depressed, spending money on things you can't afford and don't need and / or ingesting harmful substances, etc., to make yourself feel better and, therefore, more valuable in the eyes of the world helps a lot! (I kid.)
But isn't it true that there will be no marriage in the kingdom (unless you count the church being the "bride" of Christ which doesn't count literally lol ) because we will be
like the angels--asexual -- neither male, nor female, right? Would it be ridiculous to desire that it be possible that God is teaching some of us to learn to like that idea--in the here and now?