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lilitalienboi16:
So, I spoke with my dad and I spoke with my school counselor and on thursday I have a meeting with a health professions adviser. What I've been told by friends is shes going to tare me apart, this adviser is, and that she's going to tell me theres no chance in hell that I'll get into med school.

Well, my bio counselor already told me, that I won't get into med school with my current grades. I have a 2.7 GPA, and i'm told because it's so competitive that you need a 4.0 gpa to get in. Hah... right.. never gonna happen.

So i'm not the brightest tool in the shed, but I've got heart, does that count for anything?

My father told me, with what seemed to be not very much re-assurance in his voice that there was still a chance, but i'd have to go out of the country or maybe go into dental field.

So I guess I'm posting here to get this off my chest. It somewhat weighs on me, rather heavily to be honest, but I feel like somepart of me knew this moment would come. Atleast I THINK some part of me did. I knew my grades were not strong, I can honestly say I've tried very hard, i'm not ashamed in the effort I put into all my classes. If I could change anything it would probably be the hole I put myself into right off the start when I went straight out of highschool and into community college without caring for school, in fact, I did not even want to be in the classes I was taking. I was still in that highschool mentality of school is just a giant playground. That time period in my life, about two years, really hurt my gpa because I was just in school because its what you did, I had no desire to learn and had no direciton. Go figure, leave it to alex to decide two years after poor peformance to embark on what is probably the most rigerous most difficult profession one could possibly try... I could have perhaps spent a little less time playing games here and there too. Oh and yea, definitely got rid of some of those horrible teachers I had along the way which really didn't help me, but aside from that, these past four years, i think i've really tried my best.

So I guess its all in God's hands, like it always was right? Well now it definitely is but that still leaves me wondering...So After I get destroyed thursday at the advising session and told that I'm a complete failure, I think ill feel a little better because Ill be told something I already know >.> So where do I go from here? You all know I don't really know what else to do with my life, you all know I even restled with this choice of career. but this was the only road I embarked on, the only direction I saw worth taking and I Just don't know what to do. So what I am going to do is keep moving forward... even if there's no chance in hell according to everyone Ill get in because I Just don't know where else to go. Part of me is scared because... well, I can't quiet see what God is doing and even though I know in my heart I never had any control in the direction of my life, it's a little scary when you feel like the future is slipping away and God is okay with that. :/

It has been very hard to say these things because.. well a lot of them are personal flaws. I tried my best but I screwed around two years at community college which really put me in a hole gpa wise and I had poor study habits cemented from a life of no studying going into a career that requires perfect, flawless ones. It's also hard to admit at times that I played maybe one game to many when I should have been studying. Yet for all these things I knew, I was unable to change. I really tried hard and that's where I'm not upset with myself. I also think anyone who calls me smart...is just....... silly. I'm not smart, I'm just a guy with a desire to great for what he could accomplish.

Well thanks for reading, I guess I'm hoping to find some sort of inspiration, something from God. Maybe it will come from someone on these forums. Some really nice scriptures would help right now.

P.S. If anyone says something about me being depressed I'm going to throw my computer out the window.... I kid.. but seriously.. don't. Just because a guy shares how he's feeling doesn't mean hes depressed. Sure i'm a little upset with myself, A little scared, embarassed that I don't have the ability to get where I wanted to go and that I Will most likely let my father and grandfather down, not that I was ever doing this for anyone else, even them,  but that does just sucks on top of all the other suck. >.>

arion:
Well, there are many avenues in the medical field as you well know.  Just because you can't be a doctor doesn't mean that you couldn't do many other things.  Could you possibly be a PA?  Or get into nursing or being a paramedic, or a technician of some sort?  This may just be a blessing in disguise for you.  When you talk with the adviser she might have some other ideas for you.  If there is one thing that is in demand it's people in the medical disciplines.  Don't beat yourself over the head with this.  God is either in charge or he isn't.  He IS in charge of course so when one door is closed for you then he'll open another one in time.  Just be looking for that open door.

God bless!

Dave in Tenn:
I've got cousins that took unusual routes to where they are in the medical field.  One became a pharmacist first, and studied at night to earn his MD.  The other worked and studied her way up the various nursing 'ranks', and became a Licenced Practicioner -- don't ask me what that is or whether they have them in your state, but here they can do pretty much anything a doctor can do in diagnosis, prescriptions and stuff and can have their own 'clinic' without a physician.  They do referrals for things over their calling.  The only reason she didn't move on to earn her full MD is because she no longer wanted to.  She was doing everything in medicine that interested her.

Linny mentioned natural medicine in your last thread.  I don't remember you replying to her in the thread...maybe you did in PM.  It's certainly something to look in to.  Her comment didn't happen for NO reason, even if it doesn't lead directly to that.

Your Dad's suggestion/encouragement shouldn't go unheeded either.  I don't know anything about the standards of foreign medical schools, but I can tell you that LIVING and studying abroad is one of the best things that can happen to anybody. 

Anyways, just some stuff to think about before you talk to your counselor. 

 

Rene:

--- Quote from: lilitalienboi16 on November 08, 2011, 02:29:11 AM ---
well, I can't quiet see what God is doing and even though I know in my heart I never had any control in the direction of my life, it's a little scary when you feel like the future is slipping away and God is okay with that. :/

I guess I'm hoping to find some sort of inspiration, something from God. Maybe it will come from someone on these forums. Some really nice scriptures would help right now.


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Hi Alex,

Your future is not slipping away, it is just starting!  Whatever direction the Lord is leading you in, is all good.  It is natural to have a sense of "fear" for our future, because it is true that we do not know what the Lord has in store for us.  However, you can be totally confident that whatever our future holds, it is ultimately for our good because God is in control and He loves you. :)

René

Philippians 4:4-7-"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."  

darren:
Alex, is there a time limit on this matter? must you have a certain GPA at a certain period of time? Personally I have no idea. If time is not the issue then you have as much time as it take to get that GPA up to where it need be for your purpose. Your bio consulor said you wont get into med school due to your present GPA (present being the word here). What happen in the past you can not change IE, two yrs at community collage. I'm sure some good came out of those two yrs. Everthing is a learning experience. You said your not the brightest tool in the shed. I don't know about that. What I do know is that to even think that in your mind you might be capable of achieving this very high goal and all the time and effort that one would have to put into this dream tells me different. Your question on heaving Heart, Yes heart accounts for much. You said that some part of you knew this day might come. well, the day has arrived. The question is what are you going to do about it. The way I see it you have two options, give up or use all of that heart that you have and move forward. With Gods help a strong drive to succeed and heart theres nothing to stop you from making your dream become a reality. some of the most successful people in the world  people with huge dreams came true even though they were beat down by others. Telling them they were not smart enough, not tall enough, fast enough, too fat, too skinny or came from a broken home, too poor and or their GPA not good enough. Listen, the world is full of people who beat the odds who all had HEART to start. Take a look around, pro ball players, actors, doctors. How bout this one, The President of the United States of America I wonder how many people told him he was crazy? What kind of obstacles he had to over come? Who would have thought. Anyway this is a fork in your road, a test of your Heart and fortitude. How bad do you really want this. The only one that can answer that is you. If this is what God has plan for you and you want it bad enough then theres no stopping you.Personally I seen many who gave up and lost their dreams and goals. I for one. If this is what you really want then go out and take it. don't be one of those people who look back and say only if. God gives us this very short life and we must make the most of it. Keep the faith and my the force be with you

Darren

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