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newgene87:
Now to a weighty matter. Very personal yet I'm in need of freedom. That's why I've started from who to pray to and a explaination on praise. Because, at the front of those little Gideon bibles (which I carry and read everyday), under the reference for depression or depressed (funny how I don't have it right now) is Psalm 34. And the chapter begins, "I will bless the Lord at all times: His praise continually in my mouth". And it goes on to reference the entire chapter and its a chapter of praise. So I wonder, how is "Praise" a outlet for depression?

 I guess ive been suffering from "manic(?????) Depression for years now. I think that's the word but its just locked inside me. EVERYONE has their own story so I won't post my entire life; but I've experienced a suicide attempt, spent a week in the hospital where I learned alot of principles to see life in a different way, but its still with me. Ive prayed for years now, literally, to be set free; to experience "if the Son shall make you free, you shall be free indeed"(jn836). I have not attained that and I'm starting to wonder if its even true. I've been in multiple church experiences where emotionally I was "high" on the spirit of God and I felt free and then....and not too soon afterwards im trapped again in my addiction to porn, nagging habit to curse, to look upon a attractive woman to lust in my mind, to get angry. Even though at the same time, I don't drink (I'm 24), I don't smoke, I don't party, and I'm to most standards a good young guy. The image I wear looks good to anyone who sees me; but the bones in my closet shape me. At times,  I hate the state of my life, I'm in disgust with how I overanalyze things, and how I seek knowledge in anything and after it all....I'm depressed. I'm alone when it comes to these truths and I see very good morale people,who are truly beautiful honest people but they believe in free will, and hell, and God is a trinity and it just confuses me at times.so I pray, read the word,
learn truths; but it doesn't set me free.  Maybe I can admit from that John 8 passage that I am a "servant if sin". But I don't want to be. Its depressing enough to NOT want to do wrong and still DO it. And make up any excuse that its not so bad. I've even used that since hell is not true according to Christendom and regardless I'm gonna get judged anyway, so I do what I know is wrong. Its times like this where I truly cry our "o wretched man that I am! WHO shall deliver me from the body of this death??". Paul thanked God that through Jesus Christ.....but why does the Guilt become my slave and the shame my master? And if I don't have free will then why is God doing this to me??? I've been a church boy my entire life, I know how to pray and I thought I knew God and after learning these truths; I've had to know God on a deeper personal point but its caused me to leave my church and be alone.  I just don't wanna feel like a failure anymore, be free from bad habits, and negative thinking. Idk, maybe I just needed to vent to people who know the scriptures and know God, but I need someone else. Is there a better way to get to Jesus?? I pray, I praise, I speak the word over my life,I believe; well maybe I don't cause faith is suppose to be the victory that overcomes the world....but I'm overwhlem just about everyday. Just, pray for me. Please. My name is Shelton again, and I'm in desperate need of Freedom in Christ. Thoughts would be highly appreciated and accepted and as I always say, I love this forum and I appreciate all your answers and comments. Thanks.

AwesomeSavior:
Shelton:

I too have struggled with depression my whole life. I want to mention a few things about this issue to you that may help: 1) We wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, powers, rulers, and spiritual wickedness in high places. In other words, part of our struggle is with Satan himself. 2) We are to make "the joy of the Lord" our strength. We need to think about how awesome God is, constantly. I sometimes think about how huge this universe is, and then think to myself... "This is only the creation...I can't even imagine what our Father is like... and yet, we are going to be exactly like Him (except in The Throne) when all is said and done!" The thought of it is overwhelmingly good  :)  So, like Paul says... whatever is pure, lovely, and of a good report, we are to think about these things, and often. 3) Search yourself and see if you have any kind of unresolved anger issues against anyone or anything, and deal with them as best as you can, through forgiveness and letting go. I have never tried anti-depressants, so I don't know how effective they are, but it may be a possibility if you have a chemical imbalance. My mother tried to kill herself twice, and my uncle also suffered from major depression, where he drive off for a week at a time without anyone knowing where he was. Neither one of them knew Christ, though.

I hope this helps somewhat  :)

Dean

AwesomeSavior:
Janine:

Thank you for your kind words :)  You know how to greatly encourage people  :)

Dean

cjwood:
jfk, your post response resounded with Truth from His Spirit to yours, shared with ours.

thank you for replying to our dear brother shelton. in doing so, you have helped others.

shelton, you are in my prayers, as well as all who suffer from the shackles of depression.  "only Jesus holds the keys to our prisons." jfk

claudia

Deborah-Leigh:


The Peace of His Spirit saturate your words JFK~ 8) Very ~ 8) ;D

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