Well to give you a bit of background on this thought of me mine... I have a friend, well two, that like to talk to me about God. They are both agnostics and they always throw me the leveticus scriptures of slavery, killing your child if they raise the hand against a parent, God commanding killings of this or that.. and well, it's things I am not equipped to answer and often times I result to simply telling them I can't answer some of those questions to which they continue that the bible could not possibly be God's Words, it's just a bunch of fairy tales like the north mythologies that you dismiss etc..
I have defended my faith and my beliefs with hard and sound reasoning along with scientific backing of my understandings. I am content with my faith and have no doubt that Jesus Christ is indeed Lord and Saviour of this world and that His words, God's words are kept in a book for us to this day known as the bible.
My friend one day brought up the notion of an eight year old dying of cancer or the children in africa who die everyday and he told me, how do these people get to experience your God's idea of good and evil. How do they learn, like you are, from this experience you claim that God is putting us through to make us more like Him? How does an eight year old girl dying of cancer get to become more like her "loving Father" in heaven?
Again.. I could do little to answer this specific question and I retorded with the thought that not everything always fits 100% with the idea's that I hold true, I cannot explain to him why an eight year old girl has to die of cancer and where the good in that lies. How does that girl get to experience part of what God is putting us through to make us more like Him. It was tough to answer him..
Well, along come a day where I thought these things through and it hit me. Now bare with me.. these might be things that you have all well understood now for a while or perhaps even found obvious.. and I do think this to be an obvious thought but sometimes its what's right infront of us that we miss. It's what we think we know, that when push come to shove, we realize we didn't really know at all. So.. I will state the obvious as I now understand it. As it "clicked."
Everything has an opposite, has it's own counter. To know good, we must know evil. To know what dark is, we must have seen the light. To know what tall is, there must exist short. To know what happiness is, we must experience sadness and to know what Love is, we must experience hatred. Some of these things like patience, something which must be waited for cannot be created with the snap of a finger, because by very definition of the word, it is something that takes time to come about so we know for a fact that some of these things, that make us more like our Father must be experienced. They cannot be created by our Father and simply given to us as is so often wondered about.
The most important thing in this universe though, the most important gift of all.. LIFE, LIVING... It's opposite... it's counter.. is DEATH or DYING. We must experience this to truly be made aware of what it means to be alive, to be living, to have life. So the most important gift God has ever given us.. we cannot truly be thankful for it until we experience the one act in which.. one cannot return from until that day. The one act that would be to many the most horrundeous, the scariest, the most desperate..all the while being the opposite of the most beautiful, most amazing thing our creator has ever bestowed upon us.
So yes.. while the wages of sin are indeed death.. I have now come to the realization, that not only is this death simply a penalty for sin but rather.. a most revealing moment and experience - the one that makes us most thankful and gives us the ability to truly be alive, to truly be free, to know what it finally means to have this most beautiful gift from our loving Father known as Life.
I now know.. I will never trully, no matter how much I think I do, fully appreciate the gift of life that our Father has given us simply because.. I do not know what it means to be without it.
I now see death as necessary, not just as some part of life that I could not understand other than it being said by God that it was to be so for our sins.. but necessary for us to truly and fully know what it means to be alive. To finally know as He knows the most beautiful thing in all creation, in all existance. The gift of Life.
Though this thought may be simple and obvious on the surface.. it wasn't until I could put it into words on a paper, that all the death, the killing, and everything in this world that didn't seem fair or so ugly to me - no matter how much I thought I understood God's plan or HIs will - it wasn't until that moment that it all made sense to me.
So the death of an eight year old girl to cancer, though a most tragic loss of life, is to her, a bestowing of a most beautiful gift, one that when she is raised from the dead will truly be made known to her. One that will one day be made known to us all.
Please don't mock me for these thoughts.. they are rather personal and well.. I hope they help bring some comfort or even understanding to others who struggle with anything related to killing, death or having to die.
I guess the only part of this that doesn't make sense is... we know that the Father has never died... yet I'm sure He knows and is very greateful, more than we could ever imagine, on what it means to have life and be living. So I guess my theory has a hole in it there and one other hole is in the fact that what about thsoe who are still alive at Jesus return and don't have to die but are rather caught up with Him in the air.. could we say that they don't truly know what it means to be alive? Just some thoughts against my thoughts.. I am a scientist after all xD
Welp feel free to share your thoughts or ideas and what not. Just be nice with me
I do uphold the scriptures always.. above my own thoughts.. I Just didn't think these contradicted any scriptural ideas that I understand currently but I could be wrong.
God bless,
Alex