I learned so much from this bad experience that I have to share it in brief.
I made the mistake of cat-napping late evening and opening the window a "crack" for some fresh air to come rushing in.
It was just open wide enough for our cat "Freebie" to climb through and jump out to the ground! When we discovered her missing my wife, Betty burst into tears with worry and I felt that PANIC that comes with worry over "the worst" happening--
getting hit by a car, stolen, lost, hurt/killed by a stray dog--oh the internal agony! AND, it was ALL MY FAULT!
All of a sudden NOTHING MATTERED --phone calls, reading the newspaper, television shows, reading a book--NOTHING!
ALL evening activity STOPPED and we went looking and calling her name. After about 45 minutes we just went inside and turned it over to God to watch over her! (yes, my dear wife had to remind me of how stupid and careless I was! I conceded.
Then, I got the urge to go back outside one more time--and when I did I caught a glimpse of her running back between houses next door. I went after her but didn't find her! She KNEW that she did wrong and sneaked back to the house and
when Betty opened the door she ran in and laid down "like NOTHING HAPPENED"!!
I came back to find Freebie safe and Betty relieved! We immediately thanked God for "our" finding her; and, keeping her in His care! So what is my point?
I thought about Jesus and the lost sheep story. How Jesus left the 99 and went out with the ONE PURPOSE of finding THAT SHEEP! Nothing else mattered until He found that lost sheep!
Then it occurred to me: Freebie WILLFULLY LEFT our home, DELIBERATELY ran away, REJECTED the safety, food, shelter, veterinarian care and OUR LOVE!
Never once did it occur to me to TORTURE our cat for evermore inside our heated oven! We just poured our LOVE on her because we FOUND OUR LOST CAT! Our HOME was once again "all in all"!
Now this is a CAT we are talking about! HOW MUCH MORE would God love His creation and want to SAVE EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM! How could anyone believe he would TORTURE them upon finding them? I once did! What was I saying about my concept of the nature of God?
I learned a lot!