Hi Jase
Thank God he is sovereign you were not allowed to take your life [his life]
see... you are precious to the Master - He got Plans for you my friend,Great ones.
Having been involved in the SA military in the 80'S I was trained in certain survival tactics and therefore I too care little for money,clothes food etc - When I suggested to my family we could do smoked Rat and that it could taste good, the male members of my family found it [eyes wide open]hard to swallow now imagine how my wife and daughter thought - {this is not what actually happened } lol
I'm learning faith in the very area I'm being attacked in. Mat 10:36 has
now new meaning to me,It is not what I was originally thought it meant -
A Man/woman's enemies are closer than you think and they are purposely there to attack your faith [ask Moses]
Oh how sovereign is our maker
God Bless you Jase
PS Its Cool to yell ,scream an shout,but its even cooler when the Master places a dummy in yr mouth and says now,now hush littlle one
Jer 12:5 If thou hast run with the footmen, and they have wearied thee, then how canst thou contend with horses? and if in the land of peace, wherein thou trustedst, they wearied thee, then how wilt thou do in the swelling of Jordan