Thanks. That was very edifying. You know something, before I was guided to this site, I had known much more than I realized. The awesome thing about it is that I seen a man who has been guided by God (Mr.Smith) and also those who have created this site, share truths that have been revealed to them. Thank you Gina for sharing that part of Ray's post. I often sit and pray that I can walk like Jesus and endure all that is among this world. Jesus is the man! I tell ya. You have to know that he truly was from our heavenly father to take all that he did while he was a physical being.
I do understand this that in my heart I know that I am going through what I have to because it teaches endurance. It is hard, very hard. I want to be judged now and it seems I am, so that I may progress even more in my walk with the Lord. I struggle with the carnal mind, and it is pretty bad, but I have come a long way in a short time. I am 30 years old and since I was a little girl I have always believed in God. I was taught all the things that Ray said most Christians are taught like hell and fire burning pit, Jesus is Michael the archangel and other lies. This past year I have been blasted with such great revelations and truths that I fell like I am falling apart after learning things that are truly undeserved gifts, but why?I must say that I have been pulled out of the world that I may see it differently. I don't conform or do nearly a sinch of the things I did before.WHy am I struggling more? Is this part of it? I think and meditate on it a lot. What is the purpose? I read and I get answers but then I find myself asking the same questions over again. Do I not get it by now? Maybe it is there as knowledge for me to understand when I am ready. THe Lord is so intelligent the way he sets things up. It is probably to purge all the evil out. Maybe? Is That why I struggle with control and being overzealous at times, and sometimes idolizing things( putting them first), like being active and school. I get on track for awhile then I fold. I do not want to be like the sea that waivers. I want to build my house on strong foundation.Which I know is Jesus. I was brought out of church and come to know some valuable things, so where do I stand now. I know I am just going on and on here, but I have no one other than my dad, who I can talk to because nobody shares the "one mind and one spirit" with me. Of course there are true believers out there. I just do not know any. People around me look at me like I am delusional and judge me.
I sound erratic haha, but I am not i promise you. I am an A type person whose mind just keeps going. I want peace and rest from the things of this world. I want to have the mind of Christ so that all of these useless things I worry about will not bother me. The hope i do have is that I will meet Jesus one day and I will rejoice and things will be perfect and in harmony.