Hello everyone,
Sorry if I ramble, but I need to pour my heart out here so, let me start by saying to everyone here I do love you all greatly! I do not say this lightly I believe that when you tell someone you love them, you mean it. I have to again, regretably, come before you all to beg help of my brothers and sisters, in much needed prayer. I am quite fearful as of late, that I seem to be falling away from God. I do not want this to happen. It brings me to tears, and fills me full of fear to think of what will happen to me if I do fall away. I am so carnal, I still have problems focusing on God. I try my best to pray, some days are more fruitful than others, somedays I can't remember if I spoke with God or not. God has dragged me here for a reason, and I love what God has revealed to me through Rays teachings.
I try to read Rays papers, I try to read the Bible, I try to focus on the good things of God, but it all seems in vain to me. I can't keep my concentration to do any of it for very long any more. I don't know why either. I know I seem to ask a lot about this problem but it is what eats at me the most of all my problems. So dear brothers and sisters with all love and mercy I ask that you pray for me to help me through these problems, and if by the Grace of God you have advice, and encouragement, it will be warmly welcomed here. Many thanks in advance.
relatively heartbroken,
Greg