Dearest brothers and sisters,
With much love and prayers for you all, for your encouragement from God almighty to me, I ask God to bless you all for these many great things. And I ask for many more uplifting comments. I have been inspired greatly, but I have had a looming question on my mind that goes with all of this. (1 Tim 1:20) of whom is Hymenaeus and Alexander; whom I have delivered unto satan that they may learn not to blasphemeI remembered this scripture part way through this thread and wondered if this was concerning me,(not the blasphemy part) have I been given back over to satan to learn something else? Not only that did these two ever learn their lesson and were they allowed to be brought back into the flock? I don't want to be given back to satan, but sometimes this falling away episode seems to me that that is what's happening. That frightens the jeepers out of me. I know I am not to let my heart be troubled, and all is of God, but how is a person to ever not be fearful of falling away and not being excepted by God into His kingdom. My looming marriage (divorce) difficulties, being lonely, l recently seem to have an eye for women, my hip/back going out on me, the usual financial difficulties(mostly annoying, rarely detrimental God always supplies) , I am sure I am not the only one with these type of problems, but it sure does feel like I am alone in my self pity, maybe that is all this is self pity. Could it just be that satan is causing all these feelings to fall on me at the same time? I apologize to everyone for this mess of mass confusion. I have a lot of questions here and if there is someone to unravel this mess and help me out again it would be greatly appreciated.