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dean kevin heyes:
Hello to ALL, especially those who believe  the writings of the late L.Ray Smith {RIP} I have just spent the last 3 weaks ravenously consuming  90% of his Exposing Those Who Contradict site, Praise be to our LORD. A little while back as a "believing" shamefull sinner at the end of one's wit, I was in desperate hunger to "KNOW" if JESUS was real, you see at that point I "BELIEVED" HE was ,although I had never read a bible or attended any church and only recall praying twice , the first time at around the age of six where I asked him for wisdom, haveing heard somewhere that it is what GOD wants us to ask him for ! And the second time at around the age of twelve, where I asked him to punish me in this life and not the next one, haveing heard from somewhere it is less severe ! And so thirty years later finding myself at my wits end , I prayed a third time, and asked HIM to take away the  doubt that was holding me back, as I had hope and belief ,but this was not enough for me, I wanted to know with absolute certainty and how he was to do this I did not give a moments thought as it was not my place to do so .And then it all began!!! I received the first part of this trully miraculous puzzel . In winter in Bulgaria whist walking along the shoreline of the beach, contemplateing these things, when I found washed up a weatherd picture in a frame of none other than our LORD JESUS CHRIST, which I knew HE had arranged ! but this gift did not go as far as to drive out ALL doubt {me being a man of little faith} although todate this picture and its uncanny likeness to the earliest portrayals of CHRIST is a treasured item and is kept safe  between the pages of our most treasured item and that being HIS WORD. However being of little faith that day, I came home and nailed HIM/the picture to the wall in my garage knowing my wife would not appreciate this batterd old relic in our apartment. The second piece of GODS puzzel which HE blessed me with is what did throw me to the ground and at HIS feet in total humiliating shame , begging forgiveness whilst shakeing with fear and lamenting ,yes me! Dean Kevin Heyes a supposedly "tuff guy", kicked out of every school attended, even the South African army could not snap me, or even being destitute on the streets of Cape Town could not break me, and even a short spell in prison for pouching shellfish and watching men being raped and tortured  did not crack me, but what completly shatterd me and brought me to the feet of our LORD sobbing like a child and desiring absolute and total repentance was the irrefutable proof that GOD became a man and haveing being blameless was abandoned, humiliated.tortured and brutaly murderd for my account, EVEN THO BELIEVEING THIS TO BE TRUE I  CHOSE  NOT TO CARE OR GIVE  A MOMENTS THOUGHT ????? how trully pathetic I was, and so when our LORD removed my doubt by reveling the things the deciples where not at liberty to speak of in HEBREWS 9:5 ????  was it with great shame and humility I came to the doubtless knowledge that, yes! glory be to GOD its all true every last humble  word written in the Holy BIBLE. Anyway its bean aproximatly six months since that day GOD chose to reveal the complete story of HIS sacrifice to me and I have spent +- 14 hrs a day learning whatever it is that HE leads me to on my computer which I can barely operate not being all that brite to say the least ,however haveing complete faith, which more than substitutes as it would seem that I have been lead to learn but not believe all the strange teachings of the different types of Christians {GOD bless them} and just when I reached a point of going around in circles, I happend upon L.Ray Smith which to me is another very large piece of this miraculous puzzel our LORD has gifted a wretch like me ? Do understand I have no wish to sound loftier, as I state I now know as before I believed that JESUS is real, as with everything this comes with a price and that price is fear of failing or fear of falling short, although this in itself is more than likely a good thing, it is a fear none the less, and I am in no doubt after reading Ray's writings this is part of my chastisements of which I am deserving  !      your freind and humble brother in our LORD JESUS CHRIST dean        CONTINUED BELOW

Rene:
Hi Dean,

Thanks for sharing your journey and welcome to the forum. :)

I hope and pray your faith and knowledge continues to grow and you will find peace and joy among like-minded believers.

René

Dave in Tenn:
Hi Dean.  It's good to meet you.

gregorydc:
Hello Dean,
  Nice to hear a backstory like this where God has taken a person with no or little "christian" upbringing and bring them to his truth and learning. Glory to God for this miracle. May He continue to bless you and guide you in his way. And welcome to the forum.
Greg

arion:
Hello Dean;

A warm greeting to you from our little piece of shelter in the storms of life.  god has truly been gracious to us and your testimony confirms that The Lord meets us where we are and all the credit goes to him.  It sure brings peace to realize that he is complete control and he will see us to completion in his time.  Once again welcome to you.

doug

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