Glad your OK
Isa 32:18 My people will abide in a peaceful habitation, in secure dwellings, and in quiet resting places.
The storms of life come - physical and spiritual and reading your story got me thinking though the storm may be overwhelming and we can wonder where God is there is a place in the midst of it where peace dwells and no storm can touch.
Our choices do not stop God's will:
Act 27:15 And when the ship was caught and could not face the wind, we gave way to it and were driven along.
Act 27:20 When neither sun nor stars appeared for many days, and no small tempest lay on us, all hope of our being saved was at last abandoned.
Act 27:21 Since they had been without food for a long time, Paul stood up among them and said, "Men, you should have listened to me and not have set sail from Crete and incurred this injury and loss.
Act 27:22 Yet now I urge you to take heart, for there will be no loss of life among you, but only of the ship.
Act 27:23 For this very night there stood before me an angel of the God to whom I belong and whom I worship,
Act 27:24 and he said, 'Do not be afraid, Paul; you must stand before Caesar. And behold, God has granted you all those who sail with you.'
Act 27:25 So take heart, men, for I have faith in God that it will be exactly as I have been told.
Act 27:26 But we must run aground on some island."
Safe in Him always even if we feel we have run aground on some island. The ship may be destroyed but not us who sail on it.
Rhys