Sinner that I am, I am finding that 'salvation DOES come through faith'. Keep faith, Rick. If you have it, keep it.
The end result is SURE. Is there any 'good' that would better be put off until later? Is there any 'bad' that it's better to stop later than sooner?
I'm not so sure He even wants us to start with the 'biggies'. If we are not faithful in the little things, how can we be 'trusted' with the big ones?
I'll give you a parable.
I am a fair-to-middling rhythm acoustic guitar player (at least I was when I played more). I didn't learn to play guitar by either 1. Banging it against the wall or 2. NOT playing guitar because I sucked at it.
Obviously, sometimes it's harder. Some of us barely know what a guitar IS.
And some have no desire to play. And some have desire, but well and truly suck. And some are playing the heck out of an autoharp because somebody TOLD them it was a guitar, or at least as good as a guitar.
But we don't 'learn guitar' by 'not practicing'. Do what you know. Do what you can. Grow in knowledge and proficiency with the guitar. Strum till your fingers bleed. You'll be a guitar player and it may surprise you (and probably will) when you realize you are. Somebody is still gonna be better than you, but that's OK. We call them 'guitar heroes'. They urge us on.
We learn in increments, and make a lot of mistakes along the way. But we try not to repeat them, at least not to make a habit of them.
And then there is 'lead guitar'. That's not an entirely different set of skills, but a different type of playing.
Keep your eyes on the prize, Rick. Don't fret about when it will come, it will come when you're ready for it.