Hey guys, name is Ryan. Over a year ago now I was called. Shortly before that I started to have the power to put away things I've been doing. I felt like I needed to make a decision. Even while extremely new in the spirit I knew that I had a huge hand in all this. I knew I couldn't of made this big step forward on my own.
After, one day I felt like I've been revealed to. I was walking back and forth with the heart rate up for no aparant reason. I've been happy or excited about something but this was different. I'm sure many if not all of you have had some story similar? I'd think so if someone was called, but there's obviously more than one way to skin a cat.
Then questions came up. Big ones like who is God? If he showed kindness to me what about everyone else?
Well I know my church believes in eternal separation. And while they don't mention very often, actually they are afraid to ever go in detail..... About hell. But I know that's their belief. Undying soul is taught. Trinity. Eternal damnation. "Before its ever too late" They command and assume all the friends are not saved. The only teaching basically us a constant demand to repent before its too late. Weeping and knashing of teeth, as in excruciating pain etc etc. Hope some of you can feel me on this. And I'm sure all the members have numbed their selves about it otherwise they would have anxiety and questions like me.
Why is it they don't? Are they called but blind to who God is? Will they be judged for something they truly believe? Up to God I guess.
I'm glad my head popped out of the mud hole....thanks to his kindness.
I'm 26. Church is apostolic Christian church of America in Oregon.
My parents are members....they have come to the annihilation view but they don't share it because they know its a touch subject.
My dad knows verses extremely well and we all get along fine....but even I was a bit hurt when he questioned what I believed and compared it to many elders with years of experience compared to me. Lol. He's very convinced about Malachi and much other examples of people being turnedcti ash in the lake of fire. Eternal death basically.
Anyways.....I'm not a member...I have cut down to just going in the morning.... I have really good friends their, and my good ones are all non member as of yet. So its a but difficult with their parents wanting them to join.
I've prayed hard about joining and then I came to this site.....and now I'm not sure I can be a member or support a God that's 100% different from the bible.
Before this belief I came to a site called hell know. The annihilation view..... I thanked God for letting me know the truth....and I continued to say"rebuke me of any untrue thing" I was happy for a bit.....then I just couldn't stop praying and searching......then I came to this site and it was anoher wow moment. Could this be the God of the bible?
So here I am....continuing the same prayer and hoping I have finally come to the truth on Gods plan
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I guess I went a bit far on myself. Hope someone enjoys the story
PS. Here's the kicker....a friend(although not close) close to my age died in a car accident 3-4 years ago. A son of his parents which are members.
He was unrepentant and still living "the life" I'm not judging him, just his works.
I have heard the mom say he's in heaven now looking down in a better place..
I just don't understand..... They aren't worried about hell obviously when its applied to their own. Or anyone else really.
2 Sundays in a row just recently.... Both prayers were both evily similar.
Basically an old man prayed......"those who don't repent will burn in the fire pit.......
Eventually. As his voice got deeper and lower towards the end.
This prayer made me sick inside.