In my life, I have been in this situation so many times! One thing I have found out is that, some way, some how, God has seen us Thur! Now, I have observed in my situation's that "folks" will stand by and almost accused you of willfully being in that situation, and that's is your own fought. For a fact, some of us will look at another persons situation, and say this or that, and it's easy to say what a person should or should not do when we are not in that situation. "But" when we find our selves in that situation, we want every body brother, and the angles in heaven to come to our recuse. So don't let nobody tell you that it's your own cause, or you should have did this, or you should not have done that! We all have in one time in our Live's been in that dark place of bad situations , and if not, just keep on living and they will see. I know word's seems very little, but word's are all most of us have to give, so I will say to keep making one step at a time, trust in God that He will in time see you Thur this situation. Trails and troubles are a part of God's children's lives. Remember, God did not say He would keep us from going down "in the valley of the shadow's of death", but He will be with us down in that very valley! And also, when you are used to been poor most of your life, knowing that you are getting by on nothing but the mercies of God, I have learned that God will never leave you, and that He will make a way some time out of no way! I have seen God do some mighty things, make ways out of no way, when I had nothing, could not get nothing, but some way, He made a way! I am not trying to get pity in no way, but only being honest of my experiences in life! Being a black man, and living in this part of the U. S. , having many qualifications, but being who I am, have cause many disappointments in my life, but yet God has made a way for me out of no way! As a brother in Christ, keep trusting in God that He will bring you out of this situation, and to keep looking toward Him. You are in my prayer's! Timothy