Oh, Thankyou so much Dean for your kind words, it's an ongoing struggle for sure but that's the whole purpose. Everything is starting to fall into place and make sense to me. I am fairly new to all of this and things are happening so fast, I feel like I am in a race trying to catch up. I mean , I am just coming to the realization of how immense this gift is, I am overwhelmed, I have never cried so much in my life, I had no idea what the bible was about until recently,I thought it was just a bunch of prayers but it's a story, our story, its amazing, brilliant, masterpiece.You know the saying "this is my story and I'm sticking to it" kinda makes sense. I know everything is inspired by God, everything, the good, the bad and everything in between. I am nothing without Him. I am so happy that I don't have free will. I cry and laugh at the same time, I want to dance yet my knees are week I long to be out of this pretty picture that I live in, is that normal ? I'm just not experiencing spiritual changes but also physical . Please excuse me, I am rambling on in my excitement, so much is happening and even though I know not what the morrow brings, I rejoice today. I ❤️ love my newness, my new family, my burden of glory, we sing as one. All Glory Be To Our Lord