I lurk sporadically, and peruse messages here and there, but haven't been on the forum as much as I was when I first joined. So I just saw this post recently.
Due to a few mistakes made by the medical community my wife became gravely ill. I know medicine has its place, but basically we were left to our own devices and had to tough through it. I'm still shaking my head after all these years. Doctors were clueless, and I honestly believe an emergency room trip could very easily have killed my wife.
I can't prove it in a court of law, but I know deep in my heart that there was a period of time when the direct intervention of God is the only thing that prevented me from waking up next to a dead body in the morning.
We're still in the tunnel, but at least we can see the light at the end now.
This situation has been impossible to explain to friends and family. What I have found, is that when you explain something to someone, they immediately reach into their own experiences to find a way to relate to what you are saying.
Thanks to the internet, we have a good idea of what happened at the time. But we didn't have that luxury years ago, and were unable to explain what was going on in a manner where people could understand what we were going through. Hard to understand, I know, you'll just have to take my word for that.
I can't even begin to explain the anger I had over this situation. Sometimes I feel like Paul in Roman's chapter 7. I know that I don't have any standing or right to question why God does what He does. But yet I still do. Then I eventually feel guilty about it.
Rhys, I have never had an interaction with you on this forum, and now that I do, words fail me.
I am so sorry for your loss.