Thank you all for the kind words. While I do believe that God exists, and I realize that we don't have a 'free-will' and our lives were predestinated; everything, who we will marry, or if we will even get married, everything, including when we are to be born, and when we are to die, and how we are to die. Everything down to the last detail.
Why God would concern himself with even the smallest details, I do not know. But I do know He does.
It's all mind buggling when you come to realize how great and mighty God is, and how puny and tiny we are. I mean even this life is not our own, but rather it's His, and He does as He pleases.
All we can do is pray, get down on our knees and beg God for mercy for we are all sinners.
I've come to realize that no matter how hard you try to find a "soulmate" or a significant other to spend your life with, it will not happen until and unless God planed for it to happen. For who has withstood His intention?
We may go against His will [eat the forbiden fruit] but none will ever go against His intentions.
So my prayer to God is that He will forgive me, and that He will have mercy on me, and that He will bless me with what my heart desires above all else in this world, and He already knows what that is, since He knows my heart, my mind and my thoughts.
May God bless you all,
Sorin