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jennie:
I had shared with some of you earlier and will share with others now! I was born in the deep, deep south... a poor and rural area. It was always desired that men should have a son as their first born but in my case I was the first born. My daddy got to drinking real heavy after he was drafted in the Vietnam era. His friends were all pretty bad drunks too. A girl child wasn't thought of in the same way as a boy child. Without being too graphic ... the people that were around were not nice people. Long story short, it left me scarred both mentally and physically. We couldn't tell what was happening because that would have hurt our Mamas and Grandmas. When I was 18 I met my Michael and couldn't marry him without telling him that I was "damaged goods". I didn't feel it would be fair to him. He has spent our years together reassuring me that I wasn't damaged goods but that the ones who did this to me were damaged in their minds. It is hard to explain how it was. In an alcoholic home, girl children were often just passed around sort of. I will let ya'll fill in the blanks. When Michael and I married we were told that I was so damaged internally we would never have a child. God in His goodness allowed me to have the opportunity to have a child .After that , because she was born in emergency situation I had to have surgery to remove scar tissue and all and that ended the baby conceiving! I went on to be an elementary teacher and was able to help children who had been abused and molested. Just here a while back Michael and me went to breakfast. When we walked in there was a man in a booth who I noticed. He looked so familiar but I couldn't place him. We sat down and it came to me... it was one of the men! I told Michael I had to do something so I got up and went to his booth. He looked up and time had surely taken it's toll on him. I asked him if he knew who I was and he said I was familiar but he couldn't really place my name. I told him who I was and asked how he was doing. We talked just a minute and I shook hands with him and wished him well in life. You could tell he was sick and he told me he had lost all of his family. When I got back to the table Michael had tears in his eyes and asked me how I could speak nicely to that man. I don't know how. All I know is that I wish him no harm and that somehow he will see Jesus "with skin on" while he  is on this earth. I have done wrong in my lifetime and God sent the best , Jesus, to forgive my sins. I think forgiveness of others is hard and it comes to us in different times but it will come. Don't get me wrong, I still don't understand the attraction of a gown man to a little child and I think it is so very wrong, Also, I am saddened for that little girl that was me that was so injured and scared but I think God has let me maybe help others by my experiences. I am no saint, just a plodding along, messing up believer but I know God loves me. If I could have a wish in this life of mine it would be that no little one would ever be mis-treated in any way by any one. Now ya'll know one of my hardest stories. I pray for every one here who has been mis-treated or has family that has been mis-treated. Ya'll bless me so much by allowing me to unburden my spirit to you. Much love, Jennie

DWIGHT:
Jennie,

Your story has really touched my heart.  God has given you a great amount of grace and love that is a testimony to all of us.  I can't even imagine what you went through and then to forgive like you did is so Godly and merciful that you heaped coals of fire on that man's head.  "But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good......." Gen. 50:20.  Sister, I just thank God that we have you on this forum and I pray that your testimony will humble us all before our Lord and that His blessing will be upon you and your husband forever.

God be with you,

Dwight

Kat:

Dear Jennie,

Thank you for sharing that with us.
What a horrible thing you endured as a little girl.
After what you have been through, you have every reason to be bitter,
but I can feel in your posts that you are a very sweet person.
What you said to that man shows you have the love of God.
You are a wonderful example to us all  :)

mercy, peace, and love
Kat

rocky:
Jennie thanks so much for sharing.  I truly believe sharing our pains with others, is a part of healing.  God is and has done an amazing work in you.   

jennie:
Thank ya'll for the encouraging words. For some reason whenever I share my story, I still wonder if people will look at me different and I still fight through the shame. I think that God can glory from even the bad things so I think in helping someone else... God gets the glory. Rocky , you are so right... healing does take place when we can share. I wish ya'll could truly know how much I love and trust ya'll or I couldn't tell my story. Ya'll are so precious and dear to me. Much love, Jennie

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