To add on to what you observe Paula
Matt 6 : 34 So do not worry or be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and anxieties of its own. Sufficient for each day is its own trouble.
This has been a hard lesson that revealed itself to me over a period of intense worries about the future. The pressure got so great as to cause me to get into the moment just to keep sane. Then, like Jesus walking on the water, help came out of the pressure as I began to see through the pressure that there are and that I should have been recognizing the blessings of God in the now, one day at a time! The experience gave me eyes to see the usually invisible and taken for granted blessings that were then made visible. I was given eyes to see Gods abundant and daily blessings that are caught in appreciation and gratitude for HIM regardless of circumstances. It was a precious lesson and experience brought through much pain and suffering. Rather like a diamond that is actually just a piece of black coal that turns into a diamond under great pressure that the earth exerts over a period of extended time to produce the diamond that boasts the highest level and ability to refract light than any other material on the earth.
We are all black coal in transformation I think as we are brought to understand and experience,
2 Cor 12 : 9 And He said to me, My grace, My favor and loving kindness and mercy is enough for you, sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully; for My strength and power are made perfect, fulfilled completed and show themselves most effective in your weakness. Therefore I will all the more gladly glory in my weaknesses and infirmities, that the strength and power of Christ may rest, yes, may pitch a tent over and dwell upon me!
Peace to you
Arcturus