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mother is dying
Kat:
Hi Peggy,
You have a large family and so you have all of your sisters who need comforting, not to mention yourself, at this difficult time. I will pray that God will help you all have His peace at this most difficult time.
Phi 4:7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
mercy, peace and love
Kat
ez2u:
my mother had breast cancer the same time I did she did the regular therapy than she got lung cancer and had some of her lung removed now I don't know what the cancer is yetjust that it is terminal I had to leave my family many years ago in order to live. The relationship was too toxic. In the last 10 years I have been reaching out to my mom and trying to love her and accept her and what she could give me so that I would have a chance to love her. It has been painful and some rewards. My dad was in a mental hospital since I was 5, got out when I was 16 and had left home. I did not know him. He was hard of hearing and so medicated up it was impossible to have a relationship with him. through the phone or letters. My only brother was kill by a drunk and drugged driver in 2000 it was terrible as his brains was found in the back seat. The young mans father was an attorney for the apellite court so he got his hand slap. I know this will affect this young mans life. I told my husband last night when I got the news he said nothing and did nothing just kept on watching t.v. so I went to my room and cried the tears won't stop now I will tell you something when I was 5 1/2 I was put in the hospital for starvation I was there for a month getting nourishment and iron and vitamin shots each day. Many terrible things happen to me because my mom had a load that was over whelming for her to carry. In the slums when you are raising yourself preditors are all around. I was a child that was another mouth to feed born after her one son was born. My brother and I was very close but she favored him above everyone else. I was sexual abused by several I was physically abused by my mentally ill sister for years and I was raped by several men. When I became pregnant I was sent away at 16 and had the baby with no one beside me. The baby was taken away from me not because I was on drugs I wasn't nor was I a unfit mother but because my mother would not help me after I had the baby. She said she couldn't raise another child but later help my youngest sister. I did not get a good education because as soon as I could I worked to help my mom put food on our table when I left after I had to give my baby up I supported my self and finished high school. I end up moving to Florida to start a new life my myself here. I had no car and no money and hitch a ride with a young man. It was the hippie time. Jesus came to me and show me His love what I needed the most. It changed my life but you do not walk out of all that easy and I did not either. but that is another story this is my freak life with my bio family. now my mother is dying and the pain is deep raw and I am bleeding. It is a funny time because all of my friends have died or moved away it very hard for me to share this I am not a freak I have worked hard to rise above all this an have a decent life. With the help of Jesus and his mercies. If some of you think this is pride it is not it is pain raw pain. Peggy
Beloved:
This is going to be a very hard time for you. The only thing that you can do is love them all.
You can take this opportunity to tell your mother that you love her. You can also tell her that you feel bad about all the bad things that must have happened to your mother in the past.
Look past all the bad things that happened between you and her and see her as a little child of God who is spiritually bind and deaf)[/color]
People who appear cold and do not show emotions have usually been deeply hurt in the past. There may be something about you that reminds her of one of those things. I too had some of my mothers characteristics and that irritated my father.
Remember you are not the problem. You have nothing to feel guilty about. But you can undo one thing. You can make sure that she is loved NOW unconditionally. You can forgive her of all the things YOU think she did to you.
The blessing is that you know that in God's plan All things will be made new. Every thing that has happened on this earth WILL glorify God in the future. We cannot always see it from our prospective. But rest in the Lord and know ....we will understand it all some day.
You know me I have to put my carnal two cents in but cancer is not some boogyman out there that come into you. It is a cell that becomes so disobedient and reverts back to juvenile behavior.
It eats whatever it wants ( hence weight loss and nutritional deficts) It goes where ever it wants to (hence metastases and pain) and it selfishly tries to take over everything including the person themselves. Our own self is attacking us WOW
Since you have died to Christ your body is no longer important. Even though your life has been hard remember that Christ has been working on your soul and conforming it to Himself.
(2Co 12:9 KJVR) And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
(2Co 12:10 KJVR) Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
All you past troubles were not for nought....
For this exact moment ....you were made.
Your job now is.... to present your Master to you family....that is all you can do.
I pray that you may be at peace knowing that God loves you and He loves them too.
Beloved
lilitalienboi16:
Aw peggy, i'm so sorry to hear that. My prayers are with you, your family and with your mother.
God bless you!
Alex
Deborah-Leigh:
Peggy
thank you very much for opening up your wounds and suffering for us to appreciate and empathise with you and for you. I see no pride in your testimony at all.
The words that are shared with you and all of us who are suffering in diverse ways via Beloved are help in time of need.
Joe has also opened a thread called Gods Blueprint http://forums.bible-truths.com/index.php/topic,5610.0.html that I believe may offer you some supportive thoughts at this time in your life.
I too have recently been caused to look back over my life. I too have seen much distress, rebellion and pain and I trust too and am reassured that non of it will be in vain. That comforts me.
Perhaps you need to take a mild herbal calming agent to help you cope. There is nothing trivial about what you are experiencing at all.
Peace to you
Arcturus :)
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