Hello everyone,
My name is Matt. I originally signed up to the forum about a year ago under the name "spiritman". Back then, I had been reading Bible Truths for a number of months. I was excited at all the things I was learning. Soon though, I realized that the truths I learned did not take root in my brain/heart like I wanted them to. I studied and studied, but found it difficult to recall anything when I needed it most. I started thinking, hmmm, I was just ready to spend eternity in Hell and did not really care. Now I know that God will not do this, what a bargain!!! The truth no longer mattered. Everthing in my life quickly lost meaning. I became stagnant and powerless. I was no longer willing to endure what it took to show myself approved. I became lonely, arrogant, and oh yes, did I mention lonely?!
There came a point in my life recently where God showed me that there is a reason for all this. I spend much of my time praying, studying, weeping, sharing, being rejected, getting angry, rejoicing, praying, etc... I guess it is the whole rejection thing that made it difficult to move forward, but I am no longer afraid.
I am extremely happy to be here, finally! I knew it was time when I found myself trying to respond to posts, only to find that my old account was gone (only used once). I am still an active duty Marine stationed in Okinawa. I thank you for posting the audio files of the teachings, they really help when I am deployed and unable to get on a computer! Though I will be listening through headphones some weeks later, add 1 more to the attendance roster in Mobile!!
Matt