hello to all,
i just finished my 1st listening of the mobile conf audio tapes. i cannot even begin to put into mere english how blessed i was to be listening to God through ray, givin us an educated understanding of how the actual, physical books/manuscripts were carried from one generation to the next. i really won't say much more about the teachings because i don't want to spoil the intrigue for those of you who haven't had the opportunity to listen to the complete mobile conf audios. however, i felt a stirring within to post how blown away i was by the blessing that ray prayed at the end of the conference. i almost even didn't finish listening to his whole prayer because the dogs started scratching on the door to come in from doing their bzness outside (very cold/rainy). BUT, God knew i needed to hear ray's full prayer. sure enough i knew why after listening to the ending of the prayer. ray was speaking about strength and inspiration from God to look past our current problems/trials/etc. and look to what awaits us. (i am paraphrasing here cause i didn't right his prayer down verbatim.) anyway, i knew those were God's words to me and He knew i needed to hear them because i have been having so much trouble lately looking past the perils i am in. i mean, i have been trying to figure out if God wants me to stay married, or God wants me to give my husband the divorce (do i even have a choice in that matter if my husband wants to divorce?). and this question and that question, etc. etc. etc. about all that goes with that whole divorce saga. how does one live in this world (and deal with all that it brings) but not be a part of this world? i know it partly means not to be part of the "lie" of babylon, but, how can i stay focused on what absolute wonder awaits us who know the Truth when there is so much confusion in my mind at this time in my life? but then i remember that st. paul also spoke of running the race towards the prize that awaits us, and i know that st. paul's physical life on earth sucked big time after he was shown the Truth. i know that paul had a day job and that he also walked all over the place teaching the gospel of the scriptures. so how do i stay focused ahead without falling behind unless i just sit down and study BT and the scriptures 24/7? and my husband already thinks i have a Jesus problem...oh well, i just needed to post this.
love in Him,
claudia