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Robin:
Hi Carol and Decas.

I pray that God's will be done in both of your lives. I know how painful it can be.
 
In my case I don't think it was so much giving up a man that did not share my beliefs, but more giving up my heart's desire that was not centered on God. I knew without any doubt that God said no to being with a man I loved dearly. He was my heart's desire and God said no. I remember being in so much pain and thinking what a cruel joke it was for God to allow this in my life only to take it away. I cried a million tears and pleaded with God. He still said no. I was caught in the middle for a long time before God freed me to obey his will [in my life]. I gave up the idol of my heart and it has not returned. I have been alone for around 17 years and God has given me the ability to be content alone. This was God's will in my life. I was able to remain friends with this man and kept in touch over the phone. He was always there for me. He died 2 years ago.

So regardless of what was right or wrong or allowed or not allowed God said no and for me it had everything to do with an idol of my heart. I fought hard to keep my hearts desire, but God won. He always wins.

Another idol I have is wanting a home. Somewhere I can stay and be comfortable. I am 55 years old and have probably had to move 100 times. I have my new key to an apartment and will be moving again this week. It really kills me to be so unsettled, but I know this is God and I know why he is doing this. "Home" is an idol of my heart. It is not as bad as it used to be, but its still there. I am not yet content in all circumstances.

Philippians 4
11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Mark 10
25It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God.
26And they were astonished out of measure, saying among themselves, Who then can be saved?
27And Jesus looking upon them saith, With men it is impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.
28Then Peter began to say unto him, Lo, we have left all, and have followed thee.
29And Jesus answered and said, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel's,
30But he shall receive an hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life.

Philippians 3:7-9
 7But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ 9and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.

Sorin:
Hi Decas,

You're not the only one that feels lost and alone. I feel for you. And I don't think you should marry that guy, not because he has different
beliefs than you, but rather because it already looks like a train wreck.

That's my opinion,
Sorin

Grateful:
Hi M.G. !   There's NOTHING like WANTING to be in your "sweet, sweet Heavenly Home" ALL THE TIME.....for, the Kingdom of Heaven is WITHIN YOU!!!    YES! It CAN be ENJOYED ALL THE TIME,  NOW!!!  It's "just" a matter of enjoying your inner life right where you are, at any given moment, when you are holding HOLY Communion with the Lord God Almighty, and seeking to "do the next right thing."   So, whenever we are staying in a motel, at a relative's house, sleeping in a sleeping bag in a tent in the wilderness somewhere, or WHEREVER we are....we are :    HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHA, Gena!  Yeah, just call me "Glossy Flossie"!!   Tee hee!   ;D    :D

Sorin, you are SO RIGHT!!  "When in doubt :  DON'T!! "  ( The heart is the seat of Intuition, and SHOULD be listened to.....soooo, if there's a doubtful FEELING in the heart, THAT should be one's surest guide as to what to do next....and if one follows one's heart, he or she WILL find out whether they did the right thing by and by.  That's how we learn to trust the Holy Spirit's nudgings, and our Faith grows and GROOOOWS, and we become stronger and stronger Spiritually!  Rah, RAH!  :D :D   

So, Decas, just keep putting one foot in front of the other, looking UP to GOD, trusting that He WILL make your Path PLAIN to you, and just GO in it, and forget about looking back....just moooooove it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Things have a way of unfolding their Beauty for you as you proceed.  You just WATCH AND SEE if this is true!!  I double-dog-dare ya!!  (Yes, I'm dating myself here!  HA!   ;D )

Things are looking UP (for you!!) ,     ::)

Linda

hebrewroots98:
Dear MG, now that was a powerful testimony and encouragement, thank you for sharing.  I understand the moving alot and the wanting to settle down and just be comfortable.  Been there many times myself!  DH just had to take a job out of state and now we are having to learn of what Gods' will is at this time...to move or to stay here and just see him every weekend or two (he is 3 hrs away.)???  At least you saw the idol of your heart and were faithgful to God and removed it from getting in they way of your relationship with HIM...I am sorry to hear of the loss of your friend.

Carol, keep us informed on what to pray for if things change.  You are on our heart!

Linda, you crack me up!

Great insights Arc!

Nancy:
Hi there all,

M.G. please forgive me if i sound critical of your post.  I'm not being critical rather am perplexed!! You say that your man friend was an idol of the heart and wanting a home is an idol of the heart, so you mustn't have these things. 
Let me tell you what happened to me! I was at the beginning of having a breakdown.  I felt that God was telling me to sit in my bedroom and pray, period, nothing else.  Now i look back and feel that it was NOT from God but my depression.  I have always had a warped view of what God is. I had a stern father, so God is stern.  You mustn't enjoy your life, etc. You have to preach all the time, you have to this and you have to that.  I have had this all my life until now.  Should i forfeit this peace!  God forbid!
I read a brilliant article on a site called gospelfortoday.org concerning Gods' will.  It states that there isn't this mythical WILL that we have to somehow SEARCH FOR OR ELSE.  This article gave me real peace. 
My husband and my home are probably my idols of the heart. But i am human and God loves me just as i am.
The trouble with feelings is that if you weren't encouraged to have any opinions or preferences of your own, like i had, you don't really know what you want in life. Especially afflicted with OCD as well! It is a double whammy!
May i ask why you feel God asks these things of you? Again please forgive me. If you are happy with life, fine, tell me to mind my own business.
Godbless
Nancy

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