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phazel:
If some of you have remembered past posts of mine (I'm not offended if you don't) I had said that God was calling me out of the church I had been attending.

Well, today I  told the pastor and leadership of that church I am leaving.   It probably is one of the more gut wrenching things I have done in my life.  I had developed friends there, but I just could not stand the teachings of the church there any more.

The problem is that I did not get the reaction I had anticipated and it seems like they are trying to win me back with kindness.  I feel so empty,  I am praying to understand how I feel.  I feel so distraught over this that I am very tempted to go back because I am not going to be in fellowship with a group of people that maybe not spiritually, but personally I had grown fond of.

There is one friend that I especially think she is taking it quite personally and I hate knowing I hurt her feelings even if her feelings should not necessarily be that way.   I cannot stop reading the bible and searching the truths, and I know I cannot go back only to endure teachings that mostly do not glorify God.  I never thought trying to follow Gods leading would hurt like this.

Please help in whatever way God leads,  I used to suffer from depression and I feel that creeping back into my being.  I need God to help me, but right now I feel alone and abandoned by the holy spirit as if maybe I have done wrong.  I have no one in my area that I can talk to personally that even begins to believe what I have learned through this website.

Grateful:
Dear PHazel,

No, no, NO!!   You have done NOTHING WRONG!!!   We must always follow our HEART, for that is where Divine Intuition resides!!   I, too, have had to reject a church, for a personal reason, and never looked back.  Jesus encourages us to strike out for the Heavenly Kingdom (which He, by the way, says in WITHIN US!!  See Luke 17:21 ), and not look back.  Do you know Robert Frost's poem, which says something like :   "I stood where two roads diverged in a yellow wood....I stood there long, and I took the one less traveled by....and THAT HAS MADE ALL THE DIFFERENCE" ??   I too have suffered extremely severe clinical depression (many bouts of it, in fact...)....but ALWAYS came out of each episode HAPPIER than I was before I went into it.   Yea, truly, truly, God DOES bring us out of every trial....and STRONGER THAN EVER!!!!!!!!!!! RAH!!   There's that saying, "If God brings you to it, He WILL bring you THROUGH IT." 

So, Hang In There!!!   And while you're at it, google Rudyard Kipling's poem, "If" ,  and take heart from his wonderful, extremely sage advice contained through the WHOLE thing.  If you read it, you'll see what I mean!  Among other things, he advocates "holding on" even when all hope is gone.....I've BEEN THERE!!   YES, things DO work out for GOOD to them that love God....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     :D :D :D

God BLESS and LOVE you!!!!!!!!!!   :D ::)

Linda

Deborah-Leigh:
Hi Phazel

It is not easy to come off error especially when your friends are all hooked and your healthy friends are not physically present but scattered all over the USA and the world. Not easy.

I suffered from clinical depression for 10 years. For ten years I received treatment. I am CONVINCED that the trigger to this depression was my belief in the false teachings lies and heresy of the Church. I do not know how cured I'd be if I had to think that the only friends I could have were those addicted to pretense, double mindedness, lies and hypocrisy. I believe that eventually that is what you have to become in order to STAY IN Babylon and to stay connected.

I believe it is in God's Plan to show us the differences between having a friend physically and emotionally and having a brother or sister in Spirit and in Truth. The Family in Spirit and in Truth are physically scattered throughout the world but we are near to one another in Spirit and in Truth. Our like mindedness is our bond of unity and peace which is unlike anything that is dependent on carnality and emotions.

Taking up one's cross is not a walk in the park. Non of us have come here through the bed of roses and only Christ can make any of us actually take up our cross. On our own we can do nothing. If it is for you to take up your cross, God will make you. If not, you will have many friends who are called and you will join them in judgment to righteousness which will separate you then from the lusts of the flesh and the addictions of the emotions hooked to feel good sentiments unfounded on the Truth. This is not to judge or look down or put down anyone because we are all in the flesh and we all have pain and feel the fire when our comforts of our feel good sentimentality's are removed by fire and purged out by the Truth. It is a hard thing to see that those who Babyloinly "love" us are self serving. That hurts terribly!   

The two roads that lead one to solitude with Christ and the other to feel good companionship of man is a painful experience and we would all choose the comfortable path of pleasure not of pain. No one is alone in that. We all go against the Will of God and this is the Plan of God. Not all will be made to take the path less travelled. From your post it appears to me that God is making you follow Him and the pain you are experiencing now and the insight you have been given seem to indicate the way God has chosen for you. It may appear quite terrible but it is not. It is actually quite remarkable, surprising and strengthening in the Godly attributes of endurance, trust and patience.

Some how I think God is separating you to make into His image for His purpose and that is why you are been given to feel, know and become acquainted with the pain of being made separate from the flesh of feel good attachments. There is a purpose in that and it can only be a Godly one.

A day seems long to us in our humanity. An experience seems unending and unchanging but with God, He is invisible and has all the Wisdom in what He is making you experience and face right now. We all know it is difficult and impossible for us. Some of us get to experience that with God, all things are possible even as we sorrow and painstakingly travel the course God has set before us.

You are not alone. The girl you mention also is not alone and perhaps God has meant it for you to be the one to help her some time in the future millenium. God knows what He is doing. God is responsible. Trust HIM.

Peace be to you

Arcturus :)

Stevernator:
Hi Phazel,
I would like to encourage you and say that I believe you are doing the right thing.  I feel for you because I recently went through a time of depression and I felt so much darkness due to certain teachings. Since I have left those ideas and read some of the teachings on this site I think I have a better level of understanding and tolerance for people than before. Anyways remember God is love and that Christ makes intercession for us.
Peace,
Steve
 :)

Chris R:
Hi Phazel,

I would encourage you to continue reading www.bibletruths.com

Chris R.

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