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phazel:

It is hard for me to resolve this in my thinking when I can understand not having free will but then I hate myself for the way I act towards certain people.   There are some people who have really betrayed me as friends, not that they did anything really horrible,  but they have made gestures of friendship and I have found out that it is all fake, so I have pretty much been e-mailing them and being a big Jerk.

It is hard for me to understand why I can't just let it go and stop,  then I feel guilty and apologize, but I do not really mean it because I still feel badly towards them and recently started being a jerk again because I feel a humiliation when they act so superior to me because they do not act like me. 

I can't understand why they have affected me this way,  these are the only two people that have bothered me in this way and I am having a hard time understanding why I feel so helpless to control how I am acting.  I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE THIS IN MY MIND  but it will not go away.

Phil3:10:
Phazel
Guess what, your just a carnal human and all of us have to deal with the same. Best remedy is to pray for them and this is not easy.
Phil3:10

musicman:
You're not alone there.

phazel:
I do understand I should pray for them.  And it is hard.    I want to pray that they see their treatment of me, but then I see how terrible I have been reacting so I have to see that they are not an excuse to behave how I do.

I am trying to pray for good things for them even if they never really are my friends.

That is hard, but I am going to try.    With beasts like me,  the Christian anti-Christ is no threat whatsoever......

Martinez:

Hey phazel welcome to the carnal idiot club!

Meet president Me!

Don't beat yourself over it. that is just counter productive and plus God has a good, no, excellent reason for it.
He gives us these weaknesses so we can't overcome them, and when we finally get to the point where we can't overcome them and there is no good thing in us, then He will heal us.

He doesn't just do these things for our benefit, but for the benefit of others too.

Gen 50:19  And Joseph said unto them, Fear not: for am I in the place of God?
Gen 50:20  But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive.

That's how God works. That doesn't mean that we don't have to strive. it's in the striving and failing that we know that we are totally at the mercy of the beast, and that's when God becomes our strength!

Chin up, this is for but a fleeting moment.

Howbeit a seemingly endless fleeting moment LOL! ;D

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