i just want to say that i am somebody who suffers with a disability and along with that disability goes deep depression. it is all interconnected.
i am overweight. some of it is my own fault and some of it is due to medication. but i realised something recently, that no matter how bad i feel, and i feel very ill most of the time, i have determined to get some form of exercise in the day.
i dont go out very much because it is difficult but i try to walk 3,000 steps in a day.it is difficult, it is tiring and i have to push myself so much.
i have nobody to motivate me except god.
to i would like to encourage you to take some sort of exercise. start with a few steps first, and build up. my exercise takes me thirty minutes approximately, and if i cant do it all at the same time i break it up in short spurts. somedays i have to accept defeat and not manage to do anything. but very, very slowly i have lost some weight and because of this i want to continue to exercise, no matter how difficult.
i dont know how overweight you are but for your own sake try. if you are very overweight probably the best thing to start with is to get an exercise bike because you wont be putting so much pressure on your ankles.
if you put your trust in god he will not leave you or forsake you and he will bring you through fire and water.
also, i do not believe that studying the word of god is idolatory. how can that be? i may be wrong but isnt reading the word, food for the spirit and mind. actually if you have your mind renew and have the mind of christ in you, you will probably find your life changing.
dont worry about what man says to you but think rather on what god has to say to you.
you are in my thoughts.
god bless you.