Deborah,
I can remember 2 times in my life that fills my heart with regret. One was yelling at God in the car just as you did or even worse. The other was telling him to go away and leave me alone when he would not stop purging. After that I did not feel his presence for close to 10 years. Before finding Ray I thought I committed the unforgivable sin and thought he left me.
No one can wait on God unless HE makes it so!
So true. I would have found an escape long ago if there was a way. We are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation.
Jude 1:23-25
24Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy,
25To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.
1 Peter 1
3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
My prayers are with you Deborah.