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indianabob:
Good morning Deborah,
We all miss your insightful commentary and candor.
One way to recall old memories is to go back over the messages we received in July or June or May.
This is how I stimulate my brain to take an interest in topics for Bible study.
Thanks for all you have shared in the days passed and the gifts of love that we know are yet to come.
Indiana Bob
Deborah-Leigh:
I am touched and encouraged by your warmth and very healing words of consideration for me. I appreciate it!
I have realised that I am only being pruned! The shearing cutters of God's hand in my life is cutting me down in many many areas of my life. The branches of my leafy memories and attachments are being cut off limb by limb.
Is being pruned the same as being judged? Am I learning anything? OH YES I AM! I am being shown how the beast that I am is SO self dependent, self deceived and self motivated. It is IMPOSSIBLE to lay down my life to take it up again if CHRIST does not do it for me and MAKE me go where I do not desire to go, do what I would not do and become what I would not become....DEPENDENT on HIM.
I have been shown that I am a blasphemer, idolater and participant in all forms of self reliance! I have been shown that it is my nature to depend on my own understanding and to govern my own steps without consulting my creator. I have been shown that the second death is necessary to purge out the nature that defies God and assumes superiority above the Sovereignty of Christ.
I have been shown my utter inability to free myself or disengage my self from my life and the attachments I am tangled in that bind me to vanity. I have tasted the cup of pain that has made me act like a mad woman that brings imagination into the forefront of reality where relief is briefly felt imagining death in a self induced tragedy.
In heightened pain I have horrifically accused Christ of being worse than Satan. I have experienced mind numbing agony that is emotionally so intense that some relief came from screaming like a totally mad woman as I drove my car whilst receiving the bitter taste of imagining the sweetness of escape via causing myself to crash into one of the big trucks passing me in the opposite direction. I was shown that to have even entertained such a thought was equivalent to murder of an innocent party. To accuse Christ of being worse than Satan revealed the fact that there is no truth in ME, and that Christ is the victor over all evil. ONLY HE has overcome the World. I felt His pity and sorrow for my rightly earned second death manifested from out of the pain I was feeling within which I stated honestly what I most deeply felt in my pain and anxiety. In lesser times of pain I have felt every little match stick of my self perpetuating weed like resilient self reliance is being uprooted by God who is entering into my thought realm to dismantle every deception every time it shows up. No one can be still and know that God IS GOD unless GOD make it so....UNLESS HE MAKES IT SO...NOTHING CAN BE. No one can wait on God unless HE makes it so!
I remain deeply grateful for the teachings and sufferings and purging fire of our Maker that have been brought to us via Ray. We know who is the refiner, the maker and the One who saves by fire. I am grateful for all the good times of joy and peace and this site, and the encouragements that have been shared and the truths that have been embraced because without those times of seeing that God was the author of my happiness in times past....I could have no sense of sanity, or hope or peace to return to after the purging fire of His purifying promise that all shall bow and know that He is God.
Peace to you
Deborah
Robin:
Deborah,
I can remember 2 times in my life that fills my heart with regret. One was yelling at God in the car just as you did or even worse. The other was telling him to go away and leave me alone when he would not stop purging. After that I did not feel his presence for close to 10 years. Before finding Ray I thought I committed the unforgivable sin and thought he left me.
--- Quote ---No one can wait on God unless HE makes it so!
--- End quote ---
So true. I would have found an escape long ago if there was a way. We are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation.
Jude 1:23-25
24Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy,
25To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.
1 Peter 1
3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
My prayers are with you Deborah.
cjwood:
--- Quote from: Arcturus on September 05, 2008, 05:15:10 PM ---I am touched and encouraged by your warmth and very healing words of consideration for me. I appreciate it!
I have realised that I am only being pruned! The shearing cutters of God's hand in my life is cutting me down in many many areas of my life. The branches of my leafy memories and attachments are being cut off limb by limb.
Is being pruned the same as being judged? Am I learning anything? OH YES I AM! I am being shown how the beast that I am is SO self dependent, self deceived and self motivated. It is IMPOSSIBLE to lay down my life to take it up again if CHRIST does not do it for me and MAKE me go where I do not desire to go, do what I would not do and become what I would not become....DEPENDENT on HIM.
I have been shown that I am a blasphemer, idolater and participant in all forms of self reliance! I have been shown that it is my nature to depend on my own understanding and to govern my own steps without consulting my creator. I have been shown that the second death is necessary to purge out the nature that defies God and assumes superiority above the Sovereignty of Christ.
I have been shown my utter inability to free myself or disengage my self from my life and the attachments I am tangled in that bind me to vanity. I have tasted the cup of pain that has made me act like a mad woman that brings imagination into the forefront of reality where relief is briefly felt imagining death in a self induced tragedy.
In heightened pain I have horrifically accused Christ of being worse than Satan. I have experienced mind numbing agony that is emotionally so intense that some relief came from screaming like a totally mad woman as I drove my car whilst receiving the bitter taste of imagining the sweetness of escape via causing myself to crash into one of the big trucks passing me in the opposite direction. I was shown that to have even entertained such a thought was equivalent to murder of an innocent party. To accuse Christ of being worse than Satan revealed the fact that there is no truth in ME, and that Christ is the victor over all evil. ONLY HE has overcome the World. I felt His pity and sorrow for my rightly earned second death manifested from out of the pain I was feeling within which I stated honestly what I most deeply felt in my pain and anxiety. In lesser times of pain I have felt every little match stick of my self perpetuating weed like resilient self reliance is being uprooted by God who is entering into my thought realm to dismantle every deception every time it shows up. No one can be still and know that God IS GOD unless GOD make it so....UNLESS HE MAKES IT SO...NOTHING CAN BE. No one can wait on God unless HE makes it so!
I remain deeply grateful for the teachings and sufferings and purging fire of our Maker that have been brought to us via Ray. We know who is the refiner, the maker and the One who saves by fire. I am grateful for all the good times of joy and peace and this site, and the encouragements that have been shared and the truths that have been embraced because without those times of seeing that God was the author of my happiness in times past....I could have no sense of sanity, or hope or peace to return to after the purging fire of His purifying promise that all shall bow and know that He is God.
Peace to you
Deborah
--- End quote ---
deborah, it is so so so amazing that i too have in the past 2 weeks been going through the absolute painful purging of my sickening self. i have lain in bed and cried because of my inability to banish vane thoughts from my heart. God has shown me as i look thru the flames how helpless i am to present myself to Him as a pure vessel. the words of paul ring in my ears as he too spoke of his daily struggle with the flesh. just yesterday i was so angry and anxious that i found myself cursing outloud and slamming things about, suffering the wailing about of the beast within my flesh as he fights like a frustrated soldier trying to take hold of me and destroy the hope i carry knowing that God's will is STILL leading me, even through the mesmerizing physical pain that i live with daily. i just am awed by how we all are being shown that our sufferings must come and we are helpless to stop them. i have even found myself afraid to look in my mirror knowing that on the surface i see only the flesh which is the beast spoken of in His scriptures. it is only when God quiets me that i am reminded by Him that my Saviour has overcome the flesh, and that we too will overcome and be victorious by His victory. ONLY GOD, GOD ONLY came drag us to Him to cast off this horrid beast which is our flesh.
claudia
Deborah-Leigh:
MG thank you for your precious prayers.
Claudia, I guess it is the process of recognising the truth through personal experience!
Peace to you both
Arc
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