Hi Richard -- the enthusiasm you have shown since joining the forum is terrific. When I first went to Ray's old forum years ago, I felt just like you -- like the freshman at a new school.
Psa 27:14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
Psa 37:34 Wait on the LORD, and keep his way, and he shall exalt thee to inherit the land: when the wicked are cut off, thou shalt see it.
Luk 21:19 In your patience possess ye your souls.
Paul, after the miracle on the Road to Damascus, went home to Tarsus for many years before he started teaching. He was waiting on the Lord.
Joseph, when he went to Egypt, spent 13 years in prison before he was ready to interpret dreams and rule Egypt. He was waiting on the Lord.
Peter and all the disciples travelled with Christ for 3 years and were still not ready to teach themselves. They were waiting on the Lord.
Channel your enthusiasm into study and be patient.
And Krista is exactly right -- none of us have complete understanding and just because one might have more knowledge than another doesn't mean that the one with more knowledge is the elect. Only God knows who those blessed ones are. Pray for understanding. I've been studying for 5 years and I read things all the time that I don't have a clue what they mean.
AND YOU ARE NOT OUT OF YOUR LEAGUE!!!