AT 12 jesus parents did not understand Him despite His unique beginningy, . John the Baptist did not understand him and he prepared His way.
His family did not understand Him and were partly embarressed and afraid for HIm. His first group of followers didn't stay and left one at a time silently. The last 12 who were hand picked early did not stay either, even the one who rested on His bosom, depsite all that He did and said in their presenece , they all ran out on Him, one betrayed Him and one denied Him 3 times.
Even after he came back they all doubted except for the women who saw Him, then when they saw, they believed, well all except one who had to see the proof and touch it.
The only one that Jesus could rely on throughout his life was His heavenly Father.
Jesus despite having a lot of people around Him, had a very lonely exisitence. He himself says this when He tells us that He was not alone. Not one person understood His purpose except His heavenly Father. He spent a lot of time in prayer even when he was exhausted by the crowds and demands put on Him. Prayer provided companionship, solice and time for praise.
Oh how unfathmable to imagine what He felt hwhen the Father forsook Him when He was on the cross, talk about deep calleth to deep. But then how glorious to return and be one with Him after the ressurection.
I am reading the Psalms now and see some of His prayers to the Father in many of them. God inspired David to write them but in them were the words of His son's.
Alex it is a lonely path, being younger it is harder, because your path looks so long. My only advise is to develop a stronger prayer life. We all need this in order to endure.
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