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winner08:
Hello everbody, first let me say that it wasn't until a few days ago when I realized how great you guys are. How truly loving people you are and caring. That being said I want to share a very deep dark secret in my life, and what I am about to go through in the coming days and weeks maby months.
I have chronic back pain from and injury some 10 yrs or so ago. I been on pain meds the whole time. Now i come to a point in my life where i am a slave to these pills. It is time to quit. I am terrified I know what I am instore for. terrible sickness and pain, it will be just like you have seen in the movies where a herion addict kicks the habit. Now I been through the early stages of this fight and I failed. Now I am planning on it. I am trying to get myself mentally ready for this. needless to say it scares the hell out of me. Not only me but my family. My poor wife who has to watch me go through this. I know she is scared as or maby more than I am. MY poor mom, whom there is no more of a loving,caring mother than she. At least she wont be here to see here 1st son go through this ugly detoxification. These are the most power drugs known to man and my body and brain has been addict for yrs. I'm going to do this in my home in my room. Besides the agony of the withdraws there is also the worry of my BP, as I go through this my blood pressure will increase (higher) I do have bp meds that should keep this under control. On a lighter note One other reason I came to this decision is because of all of you. When I came here I had the F-it attitude.
after meeting you guys and learning through the months I came to really see a new way. I was reading and I came across a piece of scripture it says that we (I) my body is the temple of God. If I truly believe in God and truly seek to Love God the way I should (all of my heart). Why would I want God to live in a polluted body (temple).He made this body and I am destroying it. When I died I don't want to die a junkie an addict. I want to die free. Free from bondage(that's good) ;) ;) a little humor. This is very hard to share very hard indeed. I have put all my trust and faith in God and in y'all and I must say all of you have earned my respect., ALL OF YOU. As you can tell I get emotional sometimes. Anyway I thank all of you ahead of time for your prayers and kindness and love. I will start my new journey tomorrow if it is Gods will and if I make it through It will be Gods will. So with little prayers and love I should be fine.
once this starts I probable wont get to speak to you guys for a while but I will be thinking about y'all.
My sincerest thanks,
Darren
Ps I wrote this and I have been re-reading it over and over asking my self do I really want these good people to know this about me? YES I need all the help I can get.
Robin:
Darren,
Please discuss this with your doctor before you do this at home. Detox can be dangerous and being under medical care would be a good idea.
My prayers are with you as you go though this.
Hugs,
MG
mharrell08:
This is a heartfelt testimony Darren and I pray God gives you the strength to endure. Your comments regarding how you can only come through this but by God's will is a testament to how you have grown in Christ; for these are the very words our Lord stated: 'Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.' [Lk 22:42].
Also, as I know you will lean to God during this great trial, I felt in my heart to tell you to remember John chapter 17:
1 These words spake Jesus, and lifted up his eyes to heaven, and said, Father, the hour is come; glorify thy Son, that thy Son also may glorify thee:
2 As thou hast given him power over all flesh, that he should give eternal life to as many as thou hast given him.
3 And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.
4 I have glorified thee on the earth: I have finished the work which thou gavest me to do.
5 And now, O Father, glorify thou me with thine own self with the glory which I had with thee before the world was.
6 I have manifested thy name unto the men which thou gavest me out of the world: thine they were, and thou gavest them me; and they have kept thy word.
7 Now they have known that all things whatsoever thou hast given me are of thee.
8 For I have given unto them the words which thou gavest me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came out from thee, and they have believed that thou didst send me.
9 I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.
10 And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I am glorified in them.
11 And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.
12 While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.
13 And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.
14 I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
15 I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
16 They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
17 Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.
18 As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.
19 And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.
20 Neither pray I for these alone, but for them also which shall believe on me through their word;
21 That they all may be one; as thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee, that they also may be one in us: that the world may believe that thou hast sent me.
22 And the glory which thou gavest me I have given them; that they may be one, even as we are one:
23 I in them, and thou in me, that they may be made perfect in one; and that the world may know that thou hast sent me, and hast loved them, as thou hast loved me.
24 Father, I will that they also, whom thou hast given me, be with me where I am; that they may behold my glory, which thou hast given me: for thou lovedst me before the foundation of the world.
25 O righteous Father, the world hath not known thee: but I have known thee, and these have known that thou hast sent me.
26 And I have declared unto them thy name, and will declare it: that the love wherewith thou hast loved me may be in them, and I in them.
Hope this helps,
Marques
winner08:
thanks: Marques man that's alot of writing. :D :D It helps. Thanks. What Jesus went through that day is a drop in the bucket in what I am about to go through.
Darren
mharrell08:
--- Quote from: winner08 on October 30, 2008, 06:29:55 PM --- thanks: Marques man that's alot of writing. :D :D It helps. Thanks. What Jesus went through that day is a drop in the bucket in what I am about to go through.
Darren
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No problem Darren...I almost put just verses 15-26 but then I thought, might as well post the rest. :D
Marques
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