Roy, hope you don't mind if I continue this thread.
As you know, I'm scheduled for my lung scan this afternoon and I've been doing some thinking. Those thoughts I'd like to post here for your consideration. Your meaning all who read...
I know something is wrong, but I don't know yet what it is, maybe the scan will show what it is, thus the reasoning behind having one, duh...
Doc wants to rule out spots on the lung. All this has me mulling it over.
First of all, the scripture comes to mind about turning a person over to Satan for the destruction of the flesh, yet his soul would be saved in the end. Wow! Is that happening to me?
I feel that if there IS a problem, it's my own stupid fault for doing something I've always known might end up killing me. I don't feel I could ask for prayer to be healed, at least in my mind that would be totally two faced of me. Is that a thought way off the mark???
I'm not worried,,well, not much anyway. I just feel that if there is something wrong I did it to myself, so take what comes and pay the consequence.
Another thing. Judgement begins in the house of God. I'm wondering, should I sort of look at this as God's fire burning this out of me, even if it kills me. (lol, a bit of irony there if you will.)
Thoughts?
I hope I'm not out of line here, just expressing what's going on with me about all this. I'm not boo hooing either. You know, if it IS God's judgement, you might think it odd of me, but I welcome it with open arms. Mainly because deep down my greatest desire is to please my Father.
Gee, do I post this or not?
Yes, I will, I want to see what others, my brothers and sisters in Christ might say...
And thanks.